I used to be popular,
When I was a doormat.
When I tried to become another accessory,
Those that liked to wipe their feet went away.
Most relationships are followers and leaders. Victims or victimizers. Opposites do attract in this manner. Lovers or Friends it doesn’t really seem to matter.
I went from unassertive and wishy-washy like my passive aggressive mom taught me to strong and uncompromising. I can’t say for sure what the catalyst really was because I’m sure there was more than one. Just trying to survive a severely dysfunctional “kill or be killed” atmosphere will do it. This is why many of us survivors of abuse suffer from PTSD, not just actual soldiers. We lived in a war zone most if not all of our lives and that takes a psychological toll on you, like it or not.
My younger sister was always headstrong and acted out in anger in constant condemnation of our mother and how she was “spineless” and “Queen of Denial.” Since my head was in the clouds back then never wanting to believe anything was wrong, I had no idea what she was talking about. I thought she was an evil little traitor who judged everyone harshly and it was not until many years and counseling sessions later that I got what she was talking about. She always told me that she did not want to become like our spineless mother so she went in the opposite direction of not just becoming very belligerent and uncompromising, but doing all kinds of crazy, impulsive things trying to feel better.
She was later treated for psychosis and I feel that she suffered from borderline personality disorder when I see the symptoms. I feel that I have some of the same traits myself when it comes to trust. It makes you look “paranoid” when actually your history with those that were supposed to have been your loved ones, proves you right not to trust. In fact you would have to be crazy to trust others. She always said, “If you can’t trust your parents, who can you trust?” And she was spot on. Like many so called mentally ill, they sometimes see what the rest of us can’t or don’t want to.
After menopause I began to behave a lot like my sister, some of my relatives said so and that was not a compliment, they were basically telling me I was acting “crazy.” This does not mean they were correct. Do I have issues? I would think so, most of us do, but can I manage? So far. Am I happy? Not always. But I know up from down, right from wrong and I’m not into substance abuse or any abuse so that’s a huge difference. Medications and alcohol can really effect you adversely, even prescribed. People try to belittle the Christian’s use of Christ as a “crutch” but that’s exactly what He wants us to do. Prayer is a life saver.
Many times when you stop fitting other folks image they have of you, they think there is something wrong with you. When you don’t make things easy and are tired of being played you appear uncompromising to them because you are. Let them work with you for once. One time I actually had an instance that got me thinking “why am I always the one who does everything, the one that apologizes first” and left the ball in their court. The ball never came back, as I knew it wouldn’t. Sometimes I hate it when I’m right.
I didn’t sign on for crazy in my life but I got it. We all did. Our country, world, is insane beyond belief now all due to the entertainment industry and mainstream media. I never trusted these people. It started back in the 60’s, when sex & drugs became prevalent with them, and the news agencies started giving their insanity credence by printing stories of how “God was dead” simply because they wished to live their hedonistic lifestyle without guilt and fear. They have ramped up their bad influence on impressionable minds in the last years to a point of no return and all will suffer for it.
Newsflash kiddies! Just because you don’t want something to be the truth or say it’s the truth, does not suddenly make it a reality. Just because you don’t believe in a place called hell does not make it go away. No one here gets out alive. Are you really willing to gamble with your one and only soul? You are just another pipsqueak foolish mortal, full of yourself. Having a couple extra bucks in your pocket and a lavish lifestyle does not make you a God. Drugs make people delusional and these folks have proven it. Everyone knows that when people get “high” they make poor choices and these liberal misfits have proven that theory time and again.
Current bad ideas being promoted by our progressive (extremist) liberal left Democrats are:
- Hillary would have been good for this country.
- Women should have a “right” to murder their unborn.
- That walking around naked or topless in public is another “right” and good for all women. Won’t get them, or other innocent women, raped or anything.
- If a man responds in a normal sexual manner there is something wrong with him.
- That all white men are horrible and some promote killing someone for this sin of birth because all white people are “privileged.”
- Police officers are really the bad guys and should be disrespected or killed because they stop criminals.
- If you are black you can do no wrong. You are never a criminal or racist and you should get special treatment and privileges because you’re not white.
- Trump is a racist, a Nazi, a sexist, pedophile, the most dangerous, horrible president we have ever had.
- The widely promoted liberal women’s march’s that promote filth, debauchery and hatred is being led by Muslim women of questionable backgrounds making this complete hypocrisy in the first place and needs to be questioned by any thinking person.
- *The Democrats plan on interrupting President Trump’s State of the Union Address tonight by inviting selected celebrities and Muslim families to heckle him during his speech.
- It’s OK to attack, harm, put out of business or even kill anyone who does not follow liberal beliefs or agenda.
From now on I will try to stop stating my anger on my posts of sad and evil things others are doing but every opinion I have is based in facts and spiritual truth, not just feelings. As a Christian I have been making their sin my problem by bringing myself below their level with anger and condemnation and have prayed for God to take the hate and anger that I have in my heart against these living devils. I do despise them and God knows this. You can’t pretend to like others but you don’t have to make yourself sick by hating them either.
There have been many times I have not liked some folks for good reason but still prayed for them and did good for them. Those were troubled sinners who needed help because they wanted it. There are obviously different types of sin and for those people who love and promote sin and condemn God and His son, I’m going to do like Jesus and not pray for those that think they are better than God. Jesus said he would only pray for His people, not for the world, and I will do the same that I pray all of His people stay strong in the spirit and be protected from all evil in His holy name, Jesus the Christ.
I pray in the name of Jesus that President Trump and his friends and family be protected from evil and that he makes good decisions to make America safe, just and prosperous for all. Praying his efforts are not thwarted by his enemies and that he be surrounded with others that mean to help and not hinder his attempt to make a better America for all. Amen.
Please read John, entire chapter of 17.
Between the hypocrisy of our first liberal pope to the deliberate influx of undocumented people, mostly young able-bodied men, into many countries world-wide, there now appears to be mass chaos caused by our incompetent or corrupt leaders hidden agendas.
I have a feeling that we will never know what their real plan is, but it seems very likely they are trying to cause more instability in our world to make their global take over easier in the respect of the common man or peasants revolting against what they are doing since it will definitely lower most people’s standard of living or even a chance for a decent job anywhere. If everything is too calm it will look suspicious to march in UN soldiers but if they can cause enough civil unrest by staged protest and bands of refugees who won’t fit in, then many citizens will be relieved for perceived protection from those same soldiers.
In America we counted on having a somewhat safe place to raise our family and the chance to compete fairly for jobs we were qualified for while trying to keep all the creditors at bay. This has now become almost impossible.
I blame 9/11 and our current government for allowing this all to happen. With the Presidential Election tomorrow everyone is hoping to make a difference, a change for the better and sadly unless we vote for a businessman that is a bit off the wall, but honest, we will not make any change with an ex-first lady whose husband was almost impeached while in office.
Hillary Clinton has been involved in many unethical and corrupt or shady dealings since beginning her lengthy, but completely lackluster, career. When she was in the State Department she was not just guilty of being a slacker and causing the deaths of some of our citizens that trusted in America to keep them safe, but of conflict of interest by the number of foreign entities she did business with while in office that donated to her private foundation. The same foundation that never helped to build Haiti back up after the previous hurricane when claiming to do so. I won’t even get into all the rumors of mysterious deaths and missing money.
She will carry on the tradition of President Obama and his failed Obamacare and believe me people, you ain’t seen nothing yet as to the problems this will bring in the near future. This healthcare idea was her baby in the first place that she never brought to fruition. This is a woman who owes many favors and is protected at every turn no matter what her sin. Her campaign has been full of lies and dirty politics at their lowest, including hiring people to make trouble and even attack people at various Trump rallies.
You need to vote your conscience but as Franklin Graham says, pray before you go if you are not sure. God’s will is the only way to vote. Neither candidate is ideal but one to me is abhorrent. If you are happy with the way our country is moving vote accordingly but remember what “someone” once said about insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
Thinking about how the gospel of Jesus Christ has changed the world for the better throughout the years even with so many that no longer want “anyone telling them what to believe or what to do.”
I find it frightening that most of these people are constantly told what to do by our paid for entertainment and news media. The indoctrination of the people in the way of the world is dangerous and will end with dire consequences.
Turns out our lovely “Supreme Court” is supremely ignorant and their many judgments have helped to destroy this once great country. I realize we are not perfect, Jesus told us this fact over two thousand years ago. The more years I live the more this fact proves itself on a daily basis.
A small group of people managed to tell all the rest of us that prayer was no longer allowed in school. They slowly began taking away any evidence of God or Christ in any building with a lame excuse that a couple of heathens were offended. Many more of us were offended so where is our lawsuits or complaints? Buried, if anyone bothered. I find this odd and confusing while the liberal media still places the Pope on some kind of pedestal, even when he can’t keep all the pedophile priests under control.
Taking prayer out of schools was not enough for these clowns so 11 years later they also decided that a baby that was not born was not a person and the mother can murder it freely. The day a handful of people can tell me that babies are not a living human being because they are gestating than that makes all of us non-human as well because we all began that way. Yup, not on crack at all, but they obviously have no souls.
There’s a reason we now have this freak show of a presidential election. The people that have taken over America have proven how little they care for humanity or any citizen here. They have shown this in their deliberate destruction with bad judgement calls such as these that go against public opinion as well as their constant decisions that destroy families and communities while trying to look like they are helping others with the welfare system and bringing in undocumented people that do not even agree with our culture at best.
They need to remember that they are not fooling many of us and they sure are not fooling God. Of course when you are an atheist that’s not a concern you have. They better be concerned because many of us documented actual citizens will be voting come election time. Some of us just need better memories of what voting really means.
Whether you realize it or not, you can haunt a house while you are still alive.
There are some who believe in ghosts and some say hauntings are just evil spirits mimicking the dearly departed to cause problems and anguish.
There are those that believe strong emotions leave behind psychic imprints long after incidents have occurred and cause these so called “hauntings.”
If you have ever been around those with bad tempers or those with divine kindness you know there are indeed “vibes” that come from most one way or the other. Most of us are fairly spiritually weak and others vibes, or energy, does not appear to effect us one way or the other or so we think. Others are highly sensitive and can be very offended and even traumatized by just being near someone else’s “disturbed” spirit or bad mood. Prayer works wonders in balancing and calming the spirit and attracting that which is good in the world. That which is Godly.
Being constantly upset and angry does the opposite and some believe brings other bad things. Jesus spoke of the “house well swept” after exorcism and advised that your temple needs to be filled with the Word of God so you make yourself inviting to that which is pure, holy and peaceful with the positive energy of prayer. Dwell on good things constantly. Philippians 4:4-9.
God bless us, everyone.
“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13
I guess I just feel sad for a world that does not have the miracles it needs. I won’t even pretend that if you deserved a miracle you would get one. Because that’s simply not the truth. I observe the glaring unfairness of life on a daily basis in most things and I fight desperately not to let this shake my faith because it is the only thing that is keeping me going at this time.
At least I realize why I feel so bad at this time, why I’m so down and discouraged. After a lifetime of letdowns and discouragements, even tragedies, I am finally allowing myself to face my actual real feelings. Instead of trying to psych myself up and buoy my spirits with false bravado. Sadly, I know why I have been living this way. If I do not fill myself with these positive feelings, there is nothing in me. Children of abuse and neglect do not have anything good that was deposited inside of them. There is only evil and despair. This is the reason our world is in the state that it is in. People that are filled with all kinds of evil krap or nothing at all.
Jesus spoke of this phenomena and everything He said is the truth. He spoke of this condition after exorcism that if the person did not fill his “house” with the Word of God, that the evil would return and bring some friends. I guess even demons have friends and yet how hard is it for some of us believers to find even one true one?
I was feeling so bad yesterday that when I was standing in line to purchase my frozen spinach pizza, which wasn’t bad by the way, a tiny book near the magazines caught my eye. I’ve never noticed these before but “Jesus” caught my eye. The title of the periodical was Simple Grace and just underneath was the headline “Jesus is Looking For You, Can You be Found?” Good question. God only knows, no pun intended. Well, I purchased it and will attempt to read through the entire booklet and see what it has to offer spiritually and let you know.
I posted this on pogirlshines.me. I made this up many years ago, even before all the mass shootings after I heard the “guns don’t kill people, people kill people.” I knew that wasn’t accurate either. People don’t kill like this. Monsters, Neanderthals, people with low frustration and high anger, huge egos and people that have given their minds to whatever drug du jour or alcohol. Whenever you are in any kind of mental state that you are not authentically you, you better worry who you are. Most accidents, fights and murders occur when someone is out of it. I think what people need to take is something to make them more real. What’s cool about that is it’s free and happens when you shut everything off, get on your knees and begin praying for guidance. When you think something through before acting on it, no matter what it is. When you weigh the consequences of whatever your plan is and why you made the plan. One thing that is very important to remember is you know your feelings change constantly, you know you probably won’t be feeling like you feel an hour from now, but oh how it is human nature to want to pounce when anger rears that stupid, lofty head. That is usually the last thing you want to do, unless you are stuck in a position of defending your or your loved one’s life.
Sometimes I think we get so used to doing what we feel like doing that we actually forget that all it takes is that one bad decision, acting on that one impulse from which we will never return.