If I were to imagine that the only use for my life would be to live and work diligently as insects do and then just die, I would say what I always thought as a child. “What’s the point?” When I became painfully aware of death as a young child, many times I wondered why I was doing anything. Why any of us even bothered.
I then became aware of those that changed the world for others. I felt strongly that this is the reason we are all here. To make a difference for the better. I find it very disturbing that most people are not very intelligent or wise. That most don’t share my belief that we can all be someone else’s hero. That many use other people for their selfish ends and proceed to lash out like a small child at the least provocation to anything or anyone that does not agree with them. Most have absolutely no knowledge as to the miracle of life and just how precious every one of us are.
It’s really not their fault if they are not taught this in some way. Humans only know what they learn from others.
I have suffered through a very hard and cruel life and when I was a young woman I made up my mind that I was going to write an autobiography, anonymously of course, in the hopes to help others that have shared similar fates and to warn women, especially mothers, of what not to do to their children.
Most don’t really have a clue what they are doing in life and will never realize this while they are here so there’s no problem for them at all. Everyone I know that is content in his or her ignorance does not appear to have the ability to look beyond what they are automatically doing. They never question any bad decision made even when confronted by others they have hurt. Any accusation is incredulous to them. What an odd way to live. Socrates said “The unexamined life is not worth living” but I don’t know if I agree sometimes. Some of the most self-deluded ignorant people are the amongst the most content that I know. Ignorance is bliss to many but I just don’t understand how.
I believe an individual’s cloak should be removed from their sins if they are hurting others. Jesus believed this as well. He said this was why he was hated by many. We should all be allowed to live as we wish as long as it doesn’t effect others adversely. This almost never happens. Anything we do does somehow effect others. Even the act of hiding one’s head under the sand and committing the sin of omission.
Today’s writing challenge was to writing about my worst fear in a style that is not my own. Rebel that I am, I refuse to talk of anything that is negative. Fear makes one weak and I plan on staying strong. Also I wouldn’t have a clue on how to be someone other than who I was born to be.
Good to know that if you hadn’t asked us to write about something negative, I would be bitching about something. I guess my fear is that I will become a slave to what I have learned from my life experiences and not a slave to the truth.
Luckily I know better. I know Jesus. The thing that I love the most about Him is His human side. The parts where I heard He cried because He dared to care about a world that didn’t love Him back. The parts in the New Testament that say He chose to give His life because He loved us anyway. This is the part that tells me He was not completely human because most of us would do the opposite. Even though I know Christ, I still don’t want to do things for those that are my enemy. I will pray for them and not harm them, but I seldom will actually go out of my way to help someone that is against me. Why would I? Why would anyone? We know there is a good chance that the enemy will become strong with this help and destroy us. This is the way of the world. The way that Jesus told us was wrong.
I loved the part where He warned us that when the world hates us for walking in love and the light, remember that it hated Him first. Most of us hate being hated so we are careful how we walk, careful not to rock any boats and provoke our enemies. I love the part that most forget about and that is the believers will do even greater works than He because He goes to the Father.
Woke up refreshed for the first time in a while after sleeping approximately 8 hours. That’s a huge deal for me.
I can just recall the part of my dream before waking of looking out of a large window onto a funeral procession of old.
I felt relaxed and calm, not sad or upset so I don’t know what it really represented to me.
With new eyes and a different outlook, I was able to find some important information to resolve one of the problems I have been working on. Finding this out has made a difference on what I will be doing in the near future and has given me hope. I still have a lot of things up in the air, but I finally have my hope back which is everything to me.
Remembering the greatest sacrifice ever made in the history of the world. The day Jesus the Christ gave his life so that all who believed and keep his commandment of love for one another will be saved.
Jesus told them “If you love me keep my commandment.”
To those that love the Lord:
By the title of this website you can guess I ain’t no spring chicken even though my original website is entitled “Po’ Girl Shines!” I have technically not been a “girl” for a very long time, but Po’ Girl sounds a lot better than Po’ Woman. The later sounds somehow pathetic.
If you haven’t checked it out yet.
Because I am still 16 or maybe 21 in my heart I have hope for the future and believe I really can do all things through Christ who gives me my strength.
I do know one thing. If you ever allow yourself to “give-up” you are in trouble. If you ever feel the world wants you to quit, give it the middle finger in your mind! That’s when you refuse to quit! Always remember if it lifts up, it’s of God, if it tears down it’s not.
I still care what I look and feel like. I exercise, walk when I can and eat the right foods. I have never gotten joy from being “high” on any substance and over-eating feels even worse to me, thank God! I get joy in new discoveries in my world and about myself. I will do the best I can to maintain my health as I start my journey home.
My mother-in-law is about to turn 96 years old next month. She was plump her entire life because she ate well but always exercised and was active doing so many things. She’s had a garden for the last 50 years or so, cans and preserves in a number of ways. I can say she would never eat processed foods of any kind, including margarine. She was able to enjoy occasional homemade sweets because the rest of her diet was so healthy and she had enough physical exercise to stave off things like diabetes. She has had both knees replaced because she was a dance teacher her entire life until she retired and sold her business in her 60’s.
I am happy that I still get the most joy when I do something for someone else. The very reason I wanted to start my blog was to give information that I gathered through my life experiences in everything from how to save money to how to be saved. I know that most people are very poor in spirit as well as financially.
I plan to blog diligently during this next year when I expect to be going through bankruptcy and foreclosure so I can advise others that may be in the same boat.
Peace and God bless!
I’m not talking popping them like pills, but popping like in bubbles or balloons. Can you do this? I have always managed to keep most of my unpleasant memories completely out of reach in my mind. I am not really sure how my psyche actually did this to protect me. I do know that I never ended up completely destroyed or addicted from my sad/bad life like my siblings or others I know that have gone through the same kinds of experiences. I have not become angry and self-destructive in a way that has completely ruined my life. My life was ruined, but not completely.
I have actually experienced selective amnesia for some of the really traumatic incidents that occurred when I was young. There was one act of evil that I had absolutely no recollection of, even when my sister brought it up and I asked my mother later if my sister was losing her mind in saying this. My mother was naturally shocked and only when she confronted me with the fact that I could not have actually forgotten something that horrible, I remembered and then was almost angry at them jogging this awake again for me. Is that fair for people to speak of things that never need to be thought of again? For what end would someone bring up something painful?
This is why I have avoided most of my family, most of my adult life. I didn’t want to admit I came from a freak show. Many of us do, I realize this. In fact I love reading other people’s biographies, especially those of people that are not celebrities. It makes me feel so much better about my life and less a freak. I prefer to live each day the best I can and I have always gotten great satisfaction that although I am not perfect, I do most things well. I have always worked hard and have numerous talents that I have used at various times in my life. When I was young my talents afforded me many of my friendships because of shared interests or some that were just impressed with my skill as an artist or dancer. These are the kinds of things I put my attentions on. Positive works because I cared about living and found that there actually was so much good in the world if you only cared and tried. I never knew this is having hope. I had a friend once tell me that she was jealous of me. She said it in a nice way, but after a while it did kind of show.
Since I have been in menopause my memory has become worse. I would forget about anything and not have to play some psychological mind game in my brain to do so. So getting older does have its perks if you need to forget.
Sometimes “In Place No One Can Hear You Scream”
Some of my favorite quotes from Dr Martin Luther King Jr.
“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. The true neighbor will risk his position, his prestige, and even his life for the welfare of others.”
“I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. This is why right, temporarily defeated, is stronger than evil triumphant.”
“Faith is taking the first step, even when you don’t see the whole staircase.”
“Our scientific power has outrun our spiritual power. We have guided missiles and misguided men.”
“I have the audacity to believe that people everywhere can have three meals a day for their bodies, education and culture for their minds, and dignity, quality and freedom for their spirit. I believe that what self-centered men have torn down, other centered men can build up.”
“Freedom is never voluntarily given by the oppressor. It must be demanded by the oppressed.”
“In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.”
There seems to be a strong and common belief that a man is only a man if he has riches and high station in life. This is wrong. It was explained as wrong over 2000 years ago. We have been teaching right from wrong to anyone who will listen for as many years. Ever since Christ was murdered by the mindless mob.
Last week there were stories circulating about some celebrity’s wedding and how some thoughtless, compassionless loser thought it cute to film homeless people wishing these wealthy celebrities well on their marriage. Now whether this was done because they were allowing fans, whoever they may be, to say congratulations, I don’t know and really don’t care. They know why they did it. So does God. People seem to have this illusion that if they don’t believe something, it doesn’t exist or won’t happen to them like going to hell and stuff like that. You actually bring that with you when you leave. You will never escape you, so you kinda want to get it right while you are still here.
There have been numerous sitcoms lately where the writers have shown just what little regard they have for others. Just how thick-skinned and thick-headed they are. Jokes about “killing a homeless man to get laid” are simply not funny. The only people who would enjoy that humor may actually pull a stunt like that or be encouraged to by this kind of rhetoric because who would actually make a suggestion such as this in a culture where some evil, demented people actually do these kinds of things? First you have to believe that you are actually better than someone else. You may make better choices, etc, but this does not make you better.
Jesus was very clear about whatever is done to the least of the brethren is done to Him. Whatever you do to others, you do to yourself. When you hate others and hurt others you show the world just how much you hate yourself. Why? What or who ever told you that you were not worth loving? Why do you think that other’s don’t have the same needs as you do? Why do you not try to understand that most people are just doing the best that they can in the world and they need help, not hindrance? Jesus taught people to do unto others as they would wish to have done to themselves. This is not a hard concept. There is not a man alive who does not need love, so therefore needs to give it. What you give to the world and others is what you will have in return. Sure there are the evil that if their son asked for a fish they would give him a stone. Thank God but for the teachings of Christ, these people are few and far between. This is rapidly changing since the people in charge of everything go further away from the teachings of the one who was born to save the world. There is nothing funny about Jesus or anything He ever said. Anyone who thinks he can find fault with His words, good luck! There have been many who take His words and teachings and try to pretend they are their own so they can sell their motivational books or to start their own religion, such as scientology, but accept no substitutions when it comes to the Word.
Many people think they are smart when they bully or make fun of others, but they are really more upset than most. Some do become very angry and upset when someone strikes a chord in their very heart and soul, stirs their compassion and instead of crying for that person they would rather tease or attack simply because they don’t know how to deal with it. It’s OK to feel bad or even angry at those we think are lazy or stupid, but it is not OK to make fun of them or hurt them. Many of the homeless cannot or will not take people’s help when offered. That is their choice. Most of the homeless are the mentally ill and our society no longer takes care of them. Our society would rather have some on reality shows that allow the audience to jeer and scream at their antics, much like the medieval lords and ladys did years ago to the village idiots they enjoyed laughing at. I will never understand why some human beings are so evolved and others behave worse than trained chimps. I have seen dogs with more compassion than some people I know. You decide if you wish to be thought of as someone’s hero or just another thorn in their side.