Daily Prompt: Instinct or Wisdom?

Humans are another form of animal life on this planet.  The deadliest form and yet many of us appear to lack the basic instinct to get along with our fellow-man.  When I was younger I was fascinated with ESP and studied it due to my own random psychic powers.  I began wondering if this was really ESP or just the same normal animal instinct given all the species and what is “instinct” really?

It’s that innate ability to know what you need to know to survive and yes it does seem a little “extra-sensory” if you don’t acknowledge that all animals possess this skill and we are indeed animals.  There is a fabulous book out called “The Gift of Fear And Other Survival Signals That Protect Us From Violence” by Gavin De Becker.  The obvious problem with man is that there are just too many distractions as well as bad advice from so-called “experts” that are allowed to voice this bad advice to others on a wide scale.  This is another way that liberals have destroyed our society and made everyone much less safe by making you second guess yourself.  Don’t ever do that.  According to pop-culture suggestions, we are supposed to ignore our own personal prejudices or feelings and just dive into bad situations head first so we don’t look like a hater.  Sometimes you need to hate or at least be suspicious.

Don’t misunderstand.  There is never an excuse for being mean or unfair to any other human being whether you agree with them or not.  Unless they are endangering you or your loved ones.  Even those that threaten your way of life with promoting their way of life is not imminent danger and not grounds to overreact with violence on your part, as you hear of some doing.  It’s not prejudice to be afraid of a group of young men that you don’t know, black or white, that suddenly approach you no matter what your color, but if you go according to some, you are a bad person if you feel this way if they are a different race than you.  The fact is anyone that approaches you no matter their sex, nationality or age should concern you right off, depending on where you are and the situation.  Even those offering you much needed assistance.

Most people are not that friendly or generous unless they want something in return although you know there are those rare exceptions and we call them heroes.  Those that would risk their own lives to help others without anything in return.  Most people kind of suck when it comes to getting involved and many that pretend to help have ulterior motives.  Sometimes you can feel it, that something’s not right and if you lack this discerning instinct it just might cost you your life.

Hate – What the Hell Happened?

Hate.

What in the hell?

Yes, indeed.  Hatefulness is a little bit of hell so why am I starting to feel this emotion more than ever now?  Anger at aging and not being a meaningful society member in the world’s eyes anymore?  Anger at losing everything and almost everyone I have ever loved?  Anger at finding out most cute little sayings are just that?  Anger at all the lies and deceptions in the world?  Anger that my life turned out nothing like I had planned?  Fear and Anger that I just don’t really care to get back on track anymore?

I can remember a time when I accepted almost anyone as a person no matter their sins or how obnoxious they were.  This came naturally for me.  I didn’t force anything inside.  It was just how my spirit was at the time.  Willing to forgive at a moment’s notice.  You would think that doing this for a long time would make you better at forgiveness but I have found it to be quite the opposite for me.  I find myself growing increasingly resentful of any slight and to be fair, part of this is indeed hormonal which I am just supposed to accept because it’s the way we were created and there’s nothing I can do.  I have tried hormones for a short time.  Still using natural progesterone cream over the counter from some health food store.

My entire life I was a “kind” person.  When I was a child I befriended anyone who was the underdog or picked on.  Sometimes I was that person but not for long because my siblings were my opposite and very hostile and violent.  When they found out who I was related to, they backed off.  I only remember being afraid of one girl who used to beat me up after school a few times, that was before my sister started attending.  The next year we became best friends.

I’m not going to blame me feeling “hateful” purely on menopause either.  Though I now know where the term “old bitty” comes from.  I think it’s just a combination of everything in my life and the entire world at this time set off by hormonal imbalance and extreme unhappiness.  It’s not a kind or gentle place as portrayed for a while in the 50’s where you can even pretend to be safe.

But:

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Daily Prompt: Fearful to Fearless

I can’t say for sure what happened.

As a child that was extremely abused and neglected by my parents.  I was afraid of everything and everyone when I was young.  I was considered “shy” as I got older and thought that it was normal to be scared to the point of constantly sweating and not being able to concentrate because I was always on “high alert” for any danger.  I prayed I wouldn’t be called on by the teachers or picked on by other kids.  I didn’t have many friends as a result.  I learned to be hyper-vigilant so I could try to defend myself from all the possible dangers this world had in store.  My younger sister, who was a head taller and big-boned, was always my bodyguard when she could be.  She was two years behind me so was only in my schools when I was a Senior and she was a Freshman.    I sometimes wondered if I was switched at birth because there was no way I could have been related to the aggressive loud-mouths in my family.

I didn’t realize at the time I was probably suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder since this is a relatively new thing.  My other siblings appeared angry and aggressive and never seemed to fear things.  They were not raised with a Christian Aunt as I was and did not have the Golden Rule instilled in their very psyche.

I followed that Golden Rule to the letter until the last number of years of my life.  I blame menopause for my irritability and that I never give any mean acting person the benefit of the doubt if they dare try to play me or give me a hard time.  It’s either hormonal problems or I’ve developed schizophrenia.  I will usually lay right into them.  Since anger and irritability is a symptom of many in menopause, I feel pretty secure to know I’ve just become an “old bitty” as they used to say.  All I know is I’m brave as heck now.  I have no shyness and others seem to sense the fact that I sometimes wreak anger and don’t mess with me.  I actually have developed that “chip on the shoulder, make my day” attitude which is sad really.  As a result, I still don’t have many friends.

Arsenic in Brown Rice and Apple Juice

And the Great Witch Hunt For Doctor Oz

The government thought they could shut him up by intimidation by making him appear before their mighty counsel and take him to task by stating that his claims that certain natural foods could help in losing weight was not accurate.  They claimed there was no proof in this and he was just getting  people’s hopes up.  They told him to cease making these kinds of claims even though there are people who have actually lost weight using these foods.  He lacked the “scientific proof” they were requesting.  This is the best they could do at the time.

Coincidentally they did this after he started exposing the danger that was in some of our major food sources.  Dangers that could actually put our health and very lives at stake.  Findings that ABC News senior health and medical editor Dr. Richard Besser did not believe and people at the top felt threatened enough to have this other Doctor publicly condemn the findings.  Dr. Oz was challenged by numerous sources very publicly with these findings that named the brands that came from major corporations.  When you adversely effect the profits of any large corporation you had better be prepared to put your money where your mouth is and Dr. Oz was prepared because he challenged Dr. Besser to send samples for independent testing himself and Dr. Besser later agreed with Dr. Oz’s findings that we do have dangerous levels of arsenic in our apple juices.

Ironically he appeared before The Senate consumer protection panel who apparently, just aren’t doing their job and neither was the FDA as you will see if you click on the above link.  I was amazed that the FDA would even think of hiding findings for any reason but now know that our government covers up whenever they feel like it.

We live in a very material world with capitalism the base of America.  Every time Dr. Oz gives people natural remedies or a way to be naturally healthy, that’s one less pill or diet supplement that will be sold.  That’s loss of profit for that business.  Anytime he warns people of the dangers in our food source, that’s less products being purchased and again it effects the bottom line of that company.  Even though we may be healthier, in a capitalist society that is heresy!

I don’t know about you but I only have one life and I want to live it as healthy as possible.  I want to be given all the facts so that I may choose what I wish to do.  I do know that Dr. Oz is for the people and our government will cover up dangers we need to be aware of in favor of corporate greed.  That doesn’t say very much about our country but it doesn’t surprise me at all since corporations are large contributors to reelection campaigns and don’t contribute to anyone that is not a “team player.”

That being said, I am disgusted at the obvious attempt now to again try and shut this good Doctor up and make him lose his credibility.  I for one felt a need to speak up in his defense.  This latest attack by some in the medical community only confirms my worst fears about them.  Most are only in it for the money now.  I am sure this is a group of snot-nose sell-outs who got through medical school on some trust fund from their parents and now think they are too good to be linked with Dr. Oz at Columbia University or feel some type of pressure from unnamed sources to pull a stunt like this.  In the typical “liberal with an agenda” style, they are attempting to get Dr. Oz removed because they seem to feel he is not holding up the Hippocratic oath of “first do no harm.”

I think they better look in the mirror.

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Anxiety and Shocking Medical Decisions

There are a lot of titles being thrown around lately regarding Angelina Jolie’s decision to continue having parts of her body surgically removed in attempt to prevent cancer.  Courageous and brave are not words that come to my mind. I feel bad that she has such anxiety about the same risks most of us face.  It is frightening when almost every family member that has passed on has done so from cancer.  You can’t help but worry and think every twinge or odd feeling is a sure sign that you have developed the same thing yourself and that’s not to say you haven’t.

I do not feel that Angelina is grounded in anything but fear and anxiety and I was shocked to hear her quoted as saying now that she has had both tubes and ovaries removed that her children will never say that “mom died from ovarian cancer” as her mother had done.  We can’t and shouldn’t remove every part of our body as a preemptive measure in the hopes of warding off our imminent demise.  Doing something like this could actually exacerbate the thing we wish to prevent by Doctor error, infection or cause you to have to take medication such as artificial hormones which are far worse on your body than if you had just left one of the ovaries in for the next 10 years or so.

I say this as someone who knows.

I am a person who is very private.  Not a great candidate for a blog.  I am always amazed at those unafraid to share their deepest fears and darkest secrets with anyone who will listen.  I have never been that person.  I was upset with my husband for sharing things I did not want mentioned.  I don’t know if I posted anything about my surgery before but I became ill in my mid-twenties and with the help of a skillful surgeon was able to raise both of my babies to adulthood.  My Doctor was apologetic because previous testing appeared to show I had fibroid tumors, but this turned out not to be the case.  I was told that they had left one tube and one ovary in because they were clean and she did not want me to have to take the artificial hormones for the twenty or more years I would need to be on them to prevent premature menopause.

I am very thankful for this decision because other than my six month biopsies which followed, I only needed one additional surgery on that ovary 10 years later and it continued to do its job until one day, around the age of fifty, it gave up and menopause hit me like a ton of bricks! I am concerned with the fact that Angelina, being a celebrity, will influence others to do things that may not really be in their best interest just because she did it.  I don’t believe that anyone should undergo any type of surgery or even invasive tests unless it is absolutely necessary.  They all carry risks that are needless if the tests and surgery are needless.

It’s one thing to wear a seatbelt, eat healthy and exercise and not engage in risky activities such as texting and driving, which is one of the most insane things anyone can do.  These are things we can all do to give ourselves a decent chance in life.  Just use common sense and go to the Doctor if you are experiencing any changes in your health that don’t appear normal.  If you do this right away you should catch most things in time.  Other than that, don’t worry, try to be happy in all things and you will stay healthier in your life.

God bless you all!

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Racism 101

 

I am mostly white, but both my parents are slightly racially mixed.  I should say “Thank God” for the reason that there was never any racism in our family growing up.  No one ever said a cross word regarding how anyone else was or is.  Comments were not made, names were not used, ever!  Since all of us were exposed to every color of the rainbow growing up, I have to think that this was an awesome thing.        mombust2

 

When I was very young I lived in an all white neighborhood with my grandmother who is actually from Jewish/German descent, though she was a practicing Christian.  I remember being chased out of some of the kids yards to go home and I knew I didn’t do anything wrong.  I used to be so scared and wonder what was wrong.  I would ask my mom why they would do that to me and why I couldn’t play with the other kids and she just told me “some people have problems, they’re not very nice.”  That was enough for me at the time but it really, really hurt me inside and effects adversely to this day.

One night, after we kids were in bed, someone came to our door and our parents let them in.  Trying to peek downstairs, the only person I could see was some blond-haired lady.  They were asked to be seated when I heard my dad raising his voice and I got really scared because he was yelling at these people to get out of our home at once.  I asked my mom the next morning why dad was yelling at those people like that and she didn’t want to say too much at the time but told me when I was older that those people were going door to door trying to block a black family from moving into our Detroit neighborhood.  They came to the wrong house, much as they found out.

Another time I was reminded of being “different” was right after we moved to the suburbs and one of the students at my new Junior High School asked me if I was a Gypsy.  I thought she was being funny and said no, then someone else piped in saying “Yes you are gypsies.  I know where you live and I saw your whole family and you are gypsies!”  They were being very serious!  It didn’t really bother me and I actually thought it was a hoot.  I told my mom what was being said about us and she just laughed because we were darker than the average white person and people love to label you so gypsy is a good as any other stupid label I guess.

When I was older I asked her why some people were racist, because I thought it was strange and she said “Some people seem to think they are better than other people.”  Again that was enough for me because that’s all racism really is.

Now there are a lot of young black men today that are really not representing and that’s a fact because they do not represent the way most blacks think or live but who does the media print so much of their articles about shootings, murder and violence in our country?  So that kind of behavior and those kinds of stories do promote prejudice and racism and you can’t blame folks for being fearful, untrusting or even hating others if they think they have a reason for it.  I have a problem with those that refuse to tolerate or accept anyone who isn’t exactly like them and I have reasons for that.

No matter how you were raised or treated, everyone could be part of the problem or they can choose to be the solution.

It’s up to you.

Writing 101: Opposite Tuesday

Today’s writing challenge was to writing about my worst fear in a style that is not my own.  Rebel that I am, I refuse to talk of anything that is negative.  Fear makes one weak and I plan on staying strong.  Also I wouldn’t have a clue on how to be someone other than who I was born to be.

Good to know that if you hadn’t asked us to write about something negative, I would be bitching about something.  I guess my fear is that I will become a slave to what I have learned from my life experiences and not a slave to the truth.

Luckily I know better.  I know Jesus.  The thing that I love the most about Him is His human side.  The parts where I heard He cried because He dared to care about a world that didn’t love Him back.  The parts in the New Testament that say He chose to give His life because He loved us anyway.  This is the part that tells me He was not completely human because most of us would do the opposite.  Even though I know Christ, I still don’t want to do things for those that are my enemy.  I will pray for them and not harm them, but I seldom will actually go out of my way to help someone that is against me.  Why would I?  Why would anyone?  We know there is a good chance that the enemy will become strong with this help and destroy us.  This is the way of the world.  The way that Jesus told us was wrong.

I loved the part where He warned us that when the world hates us for walking in love and the light, remember that it hated Him first.  Most of us hate being hated so we are careful how we walk, careful not to rock any boats and provoke our enemies.  I love the part that most forget about and that is the believers will do even greater works than He because He goes to the Father.

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Random Acts of Violence

By now everyone has heard of the horrific shootings in Aurora Colorado.  I have not even been able to bring myself to actually watch the coverage of this.  Suffice to know that 12 precious human beings were killed and many others wounded all because a young man wanted to act out his aggression in a way that would bring him glory.  I say this after reading Gavin de Becker’s book “The Gift of Fear And Other Survival Signals That Protect Us From Violence.”  I don’t remember which section of the book is dedicated to information involving assassins, mass murderers and their mindset after their attacks, but it was documented that a number had complained if their random act of violence did not receive the same amount of news coverage than a previous assassin.  This shows a huge ego, not to mention complete detachment from reality and lack of compassion.  Apparently these kinds of mass murderers or assassins have similar personalities.    The book is very well written and manages to entertain as it covers all aspects of violence in our world from children to co-workers to partners to random acts.  It gives you information, ideas and tips to try and keep you as safe as you can be in a very cold and cruel world.

A must read for everyone because it deals with survival on a daily basis.  It is loaded with valuable information regarding the fact that we are all born with radar to distinguish crazy.  There might be a real incentive to stay sober for some of you because one of the most dangerous things a woman can do is go out drinking and hope to meet someone she actually wants to be with.  If your brain is altered, your radar will be altered too and you risk making the same mistakes that some poor women make, never to be seen alive again.  He points out that little “gut” feeling you may have about someone is usually correct.  We all have internal radar and instincts like other forms of animals do, but our society teaches us to ignore it and go against our feelings.  Kids that are bullied usually get real stomach-aches or other physical ailments before going to school because their bodies are trying to warn them not to go to a potentially dangerous place.  Our society makes them go, regardless and everyone just has to hope for the best.

This is probably why so many women that leave demon seeds end up murdered.  They can feel what this monster’s intent is, and try to leave for survival.  Not everyone who flies off the handle is capable of murder, but they could accidentally kill someone in a fit of rage.  Everyone does not leave abusive situations and most don’t turn into murder.  In my opinion, there is a lot to consider in these types of circumstances, but a woman knows if the person she once loved has no regard for her as a human being and this is the time to worry.  It is that very lack of empathy and compassion that can easily lead someone to go beyond mere assault to murder.  We are animals and are supposed to be raised in civility.  To learn manners, cause and effect and hopefully to be raised in the Word, learning to practice the Golden Rule.  This is what allows us to live in relative safety.  Knowing our fellow-man has some degree of self-control because without this, we are doomed as human beings.

It was much safer years ago when most of us were raised by the words in the Holy Bible and we were just plumb afraid to go to hell.  Now our liberal media message is there really is no God, but be nice anyway.  Not a lot of incentive to those fighting inner demons of rage and it’s not fair to them or the rest of us who may end up their victim.  Years ago you were raised to have a conscience which enabled you to fight those demon urges and this is because of the very truth Jesus taught.  You do have the power to move a mountain if you walk uprightly.  This knowledge in the truth gave so many more people the power needed to control themselves in any manner because it was written that you could move a mountain if you had enough faith.   Now many have stolen the words of Christ, debased and warped the meaning to “anyone can do anything they put their mind to” like mind over matter.  This is not what faith is.  It is the kind of things learned from motivational speakers and Scientologists all over.  If it helps people, more power to them, as Jesus told his disciples “those that are not against us are for us.”  He also stated that when the blind is leading the blind, sooner or later they will all end up in the ditch.  The problem I have always had with liberal idealism is the fact that they love the sinner and the sin.  They began teaching children years ago with well placed TV commercials that “the most important person in the whole wide world is you, and you should know it.”  I don’t know what ignorant person thought this was a good idea, but it wasn’t.  Some psychologists tried to convince parents not to give little Johnny a guilty conscience, it would only mess him up.  Now those without conscience are messing the rest of us up.