Discover Challenge: Radical Authenticity

“Plastic People, Oh Baby Now You’re Such a Drag!”

*Frank Zappa

I will never forget how much I disliked the hippies back in the 60’s and yet everyone considered me as one.  A child born in the 1950’s to actual Beatnik parents, dad a musician and mother an artist, I was who I was.  Thankfully this “hippie” thing came around by the time I was a teen or I would have really looked like the “loser” I felt like.  Obviously we did not have much money growing up as my father was never able to hold a job for very long between his brain surgeries and playing gigs on the weekends here and there.

So “Po’ Girl” was born, for real.  My sister and I never got a haircut growing up, we both wore one long braid down our back until I started Junior High and my mother decided we needed to be “scalped” and permed.  That’s about the time that the long straight look was in.  I let my hair grow back slowly and my mother, with her obsession to make me blonder, always lightened my hair with peroxide and later shampoo in “Summer Blond.”  (That’s another story.)

I had sewn my own clothing since I was about 8 years old and by my teens made much of my own wardrobe with help from my mother and grandmother with fabric selections or repurposing of older clothes.  My sister and I both loved putting our own spin to our store bought patterns and creating unique, one of a kind clothing.  Some thought we were cool because of this.  I really wish our family had taken more photos growing up so I could actually see pictures of how long our hair was at one time, no one did this.  I wish we had pictures in some of our really cool outfits as well.  Mostly I just have my memories of better days.

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Me and dad.

If the hippie thing had not come along, we would just be the weird family, which we were to some anyway.  We were “gypsies” which I think I mentioned in other posts.  People love to label you and we were not the average “anglos” like our neighbors were.  We are mostly white for sure but both parents had other heritage what gave them darker skin and hair there really were not much ethnic people around once we moved to the burbs from Detroit.

My sister and myself, me still bleaching my hair, trying to be models!

My sister and myself, me still bleaching my hair, trying to be models!

My father taught me to play the guitar and I smoked with his blessing by the time I was 16.  He rolled his own, and I don’t mean doobies, but he did drink, sometimes too much.  His family had a tobacco farm many years ago in the south, where he was from.So here I was in my natural habitat with dad jamming all night, my mom in the next room painting and I would sometimes have friends over laughing, drinking our coffee or coke and smoking all night.  I also played the guitar and sometimes joined them.   I was authentically me, whether I liked it or not and never changed for anyone.  Mostly because I didn’t know how to.

Meanwhile I tried hanging around with other “hippies” but realized that most were the plastic, weekend kind that were not the free spirit I actually was by nature.  They were mean, selfish and always wanted to get high on drugs.  The drugs were the selling point for most of them.  They were not spiritual but thought they were while they were high.  I got into a big debate one evening at some Christian coffee shop, of all places, with an older guy, maybe early 20’s, I was 17 at the time.  He kept trying to insist he saw God when he was high on LSD.  I proceeded to tell him that he did not, he thinks he did, but that God would not show himself to someone that was “out of their mind.”  I told him that he would see God maybe in prayer but not tripping.  That was just my humble opinion and who knows,  maybe he did.

I look like I'm pretty high in this picture but I just have a strange expression on my face.

I look like I’m pretty high in this picture but I just have a strange expression on my face.

Tips for Staying out of Hell

Keep the commandments and that really includes not killing anyone for any reason.  I guess if someone forces your hand by physically attacking you or yours first, God will judge accordingly.

Someone once said “the road to hell is paved with good intentions” but I don’t really think planning something good and not acting on it would get you damned for all eternity.  I’ve known lots of lazy people and I don’t equate not having gumption or passion as evil.  I tend to believe that planning something evil you never act on would be more apt to send your soul to hell, Biblically speaking.  Now look at all the evil intent acted on.  Special hot seat for that, I would think.

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Jesus said that if you loved Him you would keep His commandments of loving God and loving one another.  There is nothing about our current culture in America that shows there is any keeping of these commandments, especially the first one.  Even most comments you see on social media say “God is dead” and that rumor was started back in the 1960’s by someone on drugs, so you know it must be true! (Sarcasm)

As long as some nitwit says God is dead, then lets just do whatever we want for the moment that makes us feel good!  Lets just act on every animal urge we have!  Oh wait, that might not work out in a society with other people that are doing the same thing and we all think differently.  This is why we have always had specific social mores that were accepted as the norm and practiced by all in any civilized society.  If you thought differently and acted on it, you kept it hidden.  In the closet was the term some used, and for good reason.  Even if you had unnatural urges or desires that you refused to ignore, you did care about your standing in the community as well as caring about offending and alienating others.  Now not only do these hypocritical bullies not care who they offend, but do it deliberately getting laws passed to protect their assaults and offenses to others in the name of their biased freedoms while at the same time denying anyone else their rights.

I believe the biggest example of perversion in our American society is the mass slaughter of the unborn by mothers with obviously no maternal instincts.  Drugs and alcohol destroy the brain and other organs, and sadly many of the women that get legal abortions are party girls.  I know this because I know many that have done this.  A number of them used to use legal abortions as birth control and there was never any limits or deterrents to this kind of behavior, which is very sad for the women involved and their unborn.  How low is a society that encourages and promotes any woman to be their worst as a human being?  Supporting someone in their sin is not helping them, except to indeed go further down a slope of self-hatred and complete inner destruction to where some of these women had to live out the rest of their days higher than a kite just to live with themselves after what their society let them do.

Just to save money on welfare the government spreads the liberal propaganda that this form of murder is “legal” in their eyes so it’s one of your “freedoms” or “rights.”  I have seen first hand the horror and destruction of having “freedom” to end your own child’s life.

Abortion is the biggest lie and biggest sin in America today and I’m not even going to get into the statistics of the poor little victims with no voice of their own and what they could have contributed to our world had they been allowed to live.

BAN ABORTIONS!

 

 

 

Thoughts to Ponder

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When I have the time to think, not working, watching TV, listening to music, talking to others, etc., I find my thoughts are much deeper than when I was young.  I see my society and culture spinning wildly out of control.  With drugs, free sex and hedonistic behavior that probably outdoes any Roman heathen before their fall.

I have grown very concerned for the state of the world and its folly since the beginning of recorded history.  The fact that even though we know better and think that we are much more learned now, we still are no further ahead on getting control over our impulses.  Most of us still not willing to make any sacrifice to stave off instant gratification and pleasure for some loftier ideal or good cause.

Thus we have groups of men with guns that are paid to try and stop those of us that would bring others harm.  Pathetic when you really think about it.

I wonder what hope any civilization really has when they are being taught things like:

  • Accepting sin and bad behavior as normal instead of repentance and forgiveness.
  • Encouraging the murder of so many unborn babies as a “choice” instead of teaching self-control and that the choice ends in whether or not to have sex or wait.
  • That sex is not a spectator sport, group activity or should be done just for pleasures sake with anything or anyone instead of the notion that sex can only be consummated between a man and woman with purpose of reproduction at its heart and the spiritual aspect that goes along with becoming one with another in creating another life.
  • That government sanctified murder is OK, but killing an enemy without another man’s permission in the private sector is wrong.
  • To be driven, successful and wealthy is what we all should aim for instead of being helpful, kind and living your life as a testament to God instead of yourself.
  • That the aggressive, foolish and greedy control everything instead of the temperate and wise.
  • That man can continue to pervert and destroy everything in his path and this won’t lead to complete world destruction

“No race that does not take care of its young can hope to survive – or deserves to survive.”  Father Flanagan, founder of Boys Town.

More quotes from Father Flanagan.

Battle in Your Mind

When I was younger I never really thought about all the much used phrases in our society.  But “battle” with drugs and alcohol has been thrown around a lot lately.  CarolYoungFace

I never thought about just how deceptive that comment is.  You can say people that desire to do or have something that is not good for them and cannot seem to achieve control over their “urges” are struggling of course, but there is something to be said about the word “battle“.  You should always be the victor or maybe you just want to do it?

What is an actual battle?  It is a fight, usually a violent one.  We all need to reach the point that any thought such as taking drugs or sleeping with another’s spouse is so insane to us, those thoughts will cease and desist!  I don’t even have fleeting thoughts such as those because I was raised to believe that certain things are bad and bad people go to hell, simply put, and it worked for me.  I think this has helped me immensely to be the kind of person you can trust and I wish more people were like me.  I actually like myself and don’t want to escape from me or my life even though it’s never been an easy life to live.

There are sayings such as “don’t start nothing, won’t be nothing.”  This has to do with warning someone else not to mess with you or it could get ugly.  If you are about to do battle with yourself, why wouldn’t you give yourself the same heads-up?  Why would someone want to do anything that feels good for the moment, when in their own minds they know just how ugly it can get.

Many years ago most decent people were raised in the Word.  People complain a lot about religion controlling us, but it looks like it has to.  People used to teach their children self-control, self-discipline and respect.  People that cannot control themselves are a danger to themselves and others.  I sometimes wonder how many truly mentally ill people there are or are they just selfish and either don’t know how to or don’t desire to control themselves.

The 1960’s started the hedonistic “if it feels good, do it” mentality but if you don’t know how to control your inner demons, be sure they will control you.  They will win that battle in the mind.  You need to have matter over mind in the fact that everyone has thoughts, ideas and urges, but most never act on them because they have the ability to think further than the moment.  Yes you can be tempted by someone into adultery, getting high or even an act of rage if you are in that circumstance for the moment.  What you need to do is prepare for battles as anyone planning to win does.

You know your weaknesses and people you shouldn’t be around so stay away from these and them!  Battle’s half won.  Now get your fanny moving to living the life you really want to live, within reason, not falling back on something to make you feel better for the moment.  Now on that line of thinking, if you want to fall back on anything, you need to fall on God!  He can and will get you through everything as long as you know it to be true.  There is a rock hard strength in true faith and for most, religion is a big part of this.  It’s good training for your mind.

Not the traditions or symbols of so many of them, but the teachings of Christ to love one another.  That’s all the religious teaching we need.  To somehow get the point across to others, deep in their souls, that you would never do something to someone that you would not want done to yourself or a loved one.  This means that you would not risk harming yourself for a temporary cheap thrill.

If the entire world would become kinder and gentler there would fewer reasons for people to try to cover up their hurt with food, sex, drugs, etc.

Believe to be part of the solution as a child of God.

Filling Our Voids

Why does emptiness seem to be the human condition?  Why are we born so needy and so hard to satisfy?

Why do most never seem to achieve happiness in anything they do or in their relationships?

I would say this is a sign of some deficiency or mental condition except that it is far too common and I believe man has always been this way.

Most try to fill their voids with romantic love or sex, food, drugs, excitement or whatever they desire to feel good for the moment.  It appears no matter how much we are educated to the facts of just how dangerous our addictions and habits are, we refuse to stop always searching for our nirvana.

I just find it odd that we are created so differently from how we were obviously meant to live.  Is our civilization so perverse from the actual nature of man because the people in charge demand our lives to perform difficult, sometimes meaningless tasks, for their benefit and personal gain or are we all missing the point of the meaning of life?

The fact that we are not here for our personal desires, but to be used as the tools we are to help others and to serve our short purpose for the good of all and glory of God, not for the personal gain of any man.

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Lack of Faith

I posted this on pogirlshines.me.  I made this up many years ago, even before all the mass shootings after I heard the “guns don’t kill people, people kill people.”  I knew that wasn’t accurate either.  People don’t kill like this.  Monsters, Neanderthals, people with low frustration and high anger, huge egos and people that have given their minds to whatever drug du jour or alcohol.  Whenever you are in any kind of mental state that you are not authentically you, you better worry who you are.  Most accidents, fights and murders occur when someone is out of it.  I think what people need to take is something to make them more real.  What’s cool about that is it’s free and happens when you shut everything off, get on your knees and begin praying for guidance.  When you think something through before acting on it, no matter what it is.  When you weigh the consequences of whatever your plan is and why you made the plan.  One thing that is very important to remember is you know your feelings change constantly, you know you probably won’t be feeling like you feel an hour from now, but oh how it is human nature to want to pounce when anger rears that stupid, lofty head.  That is usually the last thing you want to do, unless you are stuck in a position of defending your or your loved one’s life.

Sometimes I think we get so used to doing what we feel like doing that we actually forget that all it takes is that one bad decision, acting on that one impulse from which we will never return.

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