Grand Funk

Not the Railroad.

I am so “blue” today that I can barely make myself type this. I was crying yesterday. I can only take so many bad things at the same time. I think most of us are like this. Our governments know this. They know there are only so many issues that the working poor or those on fixed incomes can endure so they thought “house arrest” & job loss of “non-essentials” might be a nice icing on the tombstone for some of us.  The celebrities, their spokes people, lie.  We are NOT all in this together.  Those promoting & responsible for this “house arrest” are not in the same pay grade or predicament as the majority of the rest of the world.

I don’t think for a moment that these same people who have no sanctity for human life suddenly care so much about us that they would hold us all prisoners in our homes “for our own good.”  Our lives are being ruined for their global socialist dream & most of us will not be playing along.  I guess they figured they couldn’t wait for “nature to take its course” and just allow the older folks to die of natural causes.  Wonder how many of the deceased were eliminated to decrease their chance of any future Whistleblowers?

They have caused many “non-essential” people (their words, not mine) to permanently lose their jobs because of the many small businesses that are being destroyed the longer some are allowed to play this dangerous political game.  They demand we start “fearing” one another by creating “social distancing” rules (what I like to call “cock-blocking“), wearing masks made of materials that don’t keep out the virus but does effect our air flow, some even suggesting that people start being “taken out of homes if they are ill” instead of being cared for by their family.  We used to have a group that did things like this “for the good of all.”  They were called Nazis.  “New Normal” my ass!  Who would ever accept crazy evil as the new normal?  Humans need physical contact with others to survive.  This is cruel & the opposite of what one needs to help their immune system.

This is worse than anything the Nazi’s tried to pull back in the day & we see what happened to that demented group. There’s NO denying that some in positions of power right now infiltrated there for the sole purpose of destroying our way of life. In America we have the right to life, liberty & the pursuit of happiness. We have our Constitution & Bill of Rights, all of which are currently being circumvented in favor of the Global New World Order of Socialism & eventually slavery. We can all see it.

They don’t even try to hide their vile evil anymore & they still appear to have a fan club of ignorant, scared sheep that believe all the lies they hear on mainstream propaganda TV. That’s all mainstream has ever been, we just didn’t realize what they were prepping our brains for til now.  As George Carlin pointed out…why do you think the media calls what they do “programming?”

They believe they have it made with cameras, spyware & drones. They are really this stupid.  It will only be a matter of time when their first germ warfare attack against the people shows they need to “tweek” it to do the job they hoped it would. Take out Trump voters & other “Conservative Christians.”  This is evident by the initial claims that this “coronavirus” especially harms the sick & elderly.  I wish I was wrong or paranoid but sadly I now know that I am not.

We know that Bill Gates has openly talked about the biggest danger to the world being overpopulation. He said population control must happen. He’s been working hard to see that mass vaccines be given to the entire world supposedly with a bio chip? For what exactly? Who would ever be stupid enough to allow this to be done to them?  I don’t believe all the accusations being made against him because I refuse to.  They are simply too diabolical.

No one on God’s earth has the right to demand you subject yourself to any type of so called medical procedure that introduces a foreign object into your body when you have no guarantee what the outcome will be.  I believe what is currently happening will go down in history as the most evil act of inhumanity ever perpetrated!  Especially in this age of supposed enlightenment and education. An age where we have mass technology of which many are abusing by deliberate manipulation & deletion of facts & truth from the people. Censoring other opinions as “hate speech” or “fake news” or whatever false label they choose to use which is not only morally wrong but illegal.

I guarantee their little “experiment in terror” will not work out as they had hoped for. There are just too many variables that they are simply not intelligent enough to have thought of in advance. Many of their past political stunts have been poorly executed & are now in the process of being exposed. Every time our Justice Department discovers a new treachery by the previous Obama Administration & the Intelligence Community at that time, something drastic happens to distract from their crimes.  Until now, it’s been mass shootings.  The same “Impeachment happy”group that has been trying desperately to undermine this country with lies, spying, colluding & other criminal behavior are the same ones now supporting destruction of America’s economy with continued shut downs.  Many said they would rather see a depression than have Trump’s plan to make America economically successful succeed.  If this is being done on purpose it is domestic terrorism & it’s a crime.

I do not believe the timing of this “plandemic” is accidental.  Especially since this is the most important presidential election we have ever had in America.  The people I believe are at least partially responsible for this outbreak & lockdown, destroying President Trump’s years of MAGA are the same global enemies that have been committing fraud all these years.  From the Russian collusion investigation (Fisagate) to the latest impeachment fraud.  The network news sources who are globally owned are accessories to this crime of staging the Democratic socialists years long coup.

When this truth finally is exposed, all involved will not stand a chance in hell. To endanger the lives of hundreds of millions of people on a global scale for the sole purpose of global control will NEVER be tolerated by anyone but the very feeble minded & frightened.  When will the power mongers get that the people will not be played like this?  Even fear of death won’t stop our fight for freedom.  History has shown that good people must die at the hands of evil ones to keep their very precious freedom.  We need to find the cure for evil, not this virus for that cure will prevent all bio-attacks against humanity from ever happening again.  The only cure I know is finding Jesus & following the commandment of loving your brother.

Give me my dangerous freedoms over your supposedly safe imprisonment any day!

Daily Prompt: Meandering Through Life

A little meandering is good for the soul.

But you don’t want to do it indefinitely.

Many who take a straight course of action in their lives wonder later if they have made the right choice.  They seem to think that since they knew what they wanted early in life and went straight to it, they must have missed out on so much.  I envy those people.  I believe most of what they missed was heartache, indecision and problems because the grass is never greener than in your own backyard.

I always wanted something else.  It’s not that I thought something or someone was not good enough for me, but I was never satisfied.  I knew there was something wrong with me because I was never happy.  I wasn’t depressed but lived to strive for things.  Jobs, competing for juried art shows, certain friends or a man who happened to catch my eye for the moment.  Nothing ever made me feel elated as I had hoped so I just kept searching because I knew it was out there somewhere.

I loved the thrill of the hunt.  I know this now.  I think that’s why I loved to shop.  Always looking for treasures.  Some called me “fickle” in ways of the heart.  I’m surprised they didn’t see that this was how I was with everything in my life.  Why I studied for years in college and never got a degree, changing my majors and studies all the time.  Granted, I’m impulsive but it’s honestly like I must have it all, eat it all up.  Glad I’m not like that with food.  It’s not that I’m easily distracted.  In everything I remained focused and disciplined until I achieved the desired result.

I have studied so many visual arts, even asking to work with artists I met at shows if I liked their technique in oil,  pastels or whatever their medium was.  It’s not like I was constantly quitting  either.  I studied most of these things for many years and still dabble.  Learned to play piano, organ, guitar, banjo and mandolin.  I started taking dance lessons at age 3 and my music lessons soon after.  The dancing was not my idea at the time and I sometimes wonder if my early training in so many things taught me to crave a varied schedule throughout my life.   I have studied Russian ballet, tap, jazz, modern, various folk dancing such as Hawaiian, Tahitian, Flamenco & Belly Dancing, and then later teaching it as well.

When finally forced to work for a living I did various things enjoying my work and the people until I didn’t then looking to move on to something bigger and better, always more money.   Sometimes that’s a grave mistake.  I was looking for something that would fill the void that I still feel today.  Sadly I now know what that is, but won’t get into it, too complicated.

You don’t want to live your entire life wondering what you want to be when you grow up because one day you will find yourself totally lost.  Find your anchor, whatever it is.

 

Hate – What the Hell Happened?

Hate.

What in the hell?

Yes, indeed.  Hatefulness is a little bit of hell so why am I starting to feel this emotion more than ever now?  Anger at aging and not being a meaningful society member in the world’s eyes anymore?  Anger at losing everything and almost everyone I have ever loved?  Anger at finding out most cute little sayings are just that?  Anger at all the lies and deceptions in the world?  Anger that my life turned out nothing like I had planned?  Fear and Anger that I just don’t really care to get back on track anymore?

I can remember a time when I accepted almost anyone as a person no matter their sins or how obnoxious they were.  This came naturally for me.  I didn’t force anything inside.  It was just how my spirit was at the time.  Willing to forgive at a moment’s notice.  You would think that doing this for a long time would make you better at forgiveness but I have found it to be quite the opposite for me.  I find myself growing increasingly resentful of any slight and to be fair, part of this is indeed hormonal which I am just supposed to accept because it’s the way we were created and there’s nothing I can do.  I have tried hormones for a short time.  Still using natural progesterone cream over the counter from some health food store.

My entire life I was a “kind” person.  When I was a child I befriended anyone who was the underdog or picked on.  Sometimes I was that person but not for long because my siblings were my opposite and very hostile and violent.  When they found out who I was related to, they backed off.  I only remember being afraid of one girl who used to beat me up after school a few times, that was before my sister started attending.  The next year we became best friends.

I’m not going to blame me feeling “hateful” purely on menopause either.  Though I now know where the term “old bitty” comes from.  I think it’s just a combination of everything in my life and the entire world at this time set off by hormonal imbalance and extreme unhappiness.  It’s not a kind or gentle place as portrayed for a while in the 50’s where you can even pretend to be safe.

But:

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Daily Prompt: Seeing Jesus Everywhere!

“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.”  John 15:13

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I guess I just feel sad for a world that does not have the miracles it needs. I won’t even pretend that if you deserved a miracle you would get one.  Because that’s simply not the truth.  I observe the glaring unfairness of life on a daily basis in most things and I fight desperately not to let this shake my faith because it is the only thing that is keeping me going at this time.

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At least I realize why I feel so bad at this time, why I’m so down and discouraged. After a lifetime of letdowns and discouragements, even tragedies, I am finally allowing myself to face my actual real feelings.  Instead of trying to psych myself up and buoy my spirits with false bravado.  Sadly, I know why I have been living this way.  If I do not fill myself with these positive feelings, there is nothing in me.  Children of abuse and neglect do not have anything good that was deposited inside of them.  There is only evil and despair.  This is the reason our world is in the state that it is in.  People that are filled with all kinds of evil krap or nothing at all.

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Jesus spoke of this phenomena and everything He said is the truth. He spoke of this condition after exorcism that if the person did not fill his “house” with the Word of God, that the evil would return and bring some friends.  I guess even demons have friends and yet how hard is it for some of us believers to find even one true one?

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I was feeling so bad yesterday that when I was standing in line to purchase my frozen spinach pizza, which wasn’t bad by the way, a tiny book near the magazines caught my eye.  I’ve never noticed these before but “Jesus” caught my eye.  The title of the periodical was Simple Grace and just underneath was the headline “Jesus is Looking For You, Can You be Found?”  Good question.  God only knows, no pun intended.  Well, I purchased it and will attempt to read through the entire booklet and see what it has to offer spiritually and let you know.

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Musings of the Day: April 3, 2014

  1. Wondering just how the antidepressant effected this latest Fort Hood shooter.  When I hear depression, I think medicated.  I remember when I was stupid enough to listen to my then Dr. that my fatigue and muscle pain was probably depression and medication could help me.  Bad move.  Once I started taking that crap, which never did help my symptoms by the way, I never felt myself.  It was horrible.  I walked around able to function, but feeling like I was surrounded by a cloud of cotton candy.  Can’t really describe it any better.  Unnatural and floaty.  Not happy, but not caring and that began to scare me.  Normally I’m a very caring person and conscientious about things I do.  A bomb could have gone off next to me and I would not have responded.  That is the last thing we need to do to people.  Make them living zombies for the fact that I believe some can just act out and not even think it’s wrong or even care.  It’s like taking away someone’s humanity and then expecting them to still be human.  Being high, or not in one’s right mind is always a key factor to most accidents and any violence.  Better idea is to stop wars and abuse of people and allow us to live our lives naturally.  Not torture and traumatize everyone then give them pills or alcohol and hope this makes them all better again.
  2. Kate Puzey was brutally murdered five years ago while serving in our Peace Corps.  Real peaceful.  She is exactly the reason that I cannot even begin to do things like this.  I would love to use my talents and experience to help others, but have found that the hoops you have to jump through, the regulations needed to be followed and the fact that there are just so many other, unpleasant and downright dangerous people you have to be with, is not worth it to me.  Knowing my strong personality I would have gone about stopping the evil she saw going on myself.  Thank God for people as brave as Kate Puzey.  Unfortunately there are some really evil people in this world, especially when you go to other countries that tend to be more barbaric and even more openly women-hating than America so what’s the point in trying to make a female’s life better when it will never be allowed?  It appears the Peace Corps is a very poorly run farce of an organization.  Why do they continue to send people into areas that truly are not safe?  Why do they pretend they can make a difference, yet allow these other countries to continue to practice religion and traditions that harm others?  Do they do background checks on all they hire?  President Obama did sign a protection act in 2011 and more information can be found on katesvoice.net
  3. I am still not quite sure how the Supreme Court’s decision to remove the cap on the amount that can be donated to specific parties or candidates as unconstitutional, still only allows the little guy a cap of $2,600 per election.  So who is it that has the cap removed because it’s unconstitutional to tell someone what they are allowed to donate?  If anyone can explain this to me, I would appreciate it.