Daily Prompt: Uncompromising Ain’t Popular

I used to be popular,

When I was a doormat.

When I tried to become another accessory,

Those that liked to wipe their feet went away.

Most relationships are followers and leaders.  Victims or victimizers.  Opposites do attract in this manner.   Lovers or Friends it doesn’t really seem to matter.

I went from unassertive and wishy-washy like my passive aggressive mom taught me to strong and uncompromising.  I can’t say for sure what the catalyst really was because I’m sure there was more than one.  Just trying to survive a severely dysfunctional “kill or be killed” atmosphere will do it.  This is why many of us survivors of abuse suffer from PTSD, not just actual soldiers.  We lived in a war zone most if not all of our lives and that takes a psychological toll on you, like it or not.

My younger sister was always headstrong and acted out in anger in constant condemnation of our mother and how she was “spineless” and “Queen of Denial.”  Since my head was in the clouds back then never wanting to believe anything was wrong, I had no idea what she was talking about.  I thought she was an evil little traitor who judged everyone harshly and it was not until many years and counseling sessions later that I got what she was talking about.  She always told me that she did not want to become like our spineless mother so she went in the opposite direction of not just becoming very belligerent and uncompromising, but doing all kinds of crazy, impulsive things trying to feel better.

She was later treated for psychosis and I feel that she suffered from borderline personality disorder when I see the symptoms.  I feel that I have some of the same traits myself when it comes to trust.  It makes you look “paranoid” when actually your history with those that were supposed to have been your loved ones, proves you right not to trust.  In fact you would have to be crazy to trust others.  She always said, “If you can’t trust your parents, who can you trust?”  And she was spot on.  Like many so called mentally ill, they sometimes see what the rest of us can’t or don’t want to.

After menopause I began to behave a lot like my sister, some of my relatives said so and that was not a compliment, they were basically telling me I was acting “crazy.”  This does not mean they were correct.  Do I have issues?  I would think so, most of us do, but can I manage?  So far.  Am I happy?  Not always.  But I know up from down, right from wrong and I’m not into substance abuse or any abuse so that’s a huge difference.  Medications and alcohol can really effect you adversely, even prescribed.  People try to belittle the Christian’s use of Christ as a “crutch” but that’s exactly what He wants us to do.  Prayer is a life saver.

Many times when you stop fitting other folks image they have of you, they think there is something wrong with you.  When you don’t make things easy and are tired of being played you appear uncompromising to them because you are.  Let them work with you for once.  One time I actually had an instance that got me thinking “why am I always the one who does everything, the one that apologizes first” and left the ball in their court.  The ball never came back, as I knew it wouldn’t.  Sometimes I hate it when I’m right.

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Daily Prompt: Courage of Your Convictions

How many of us really have the intestinal fortitude to withstand all that comes against us when we know we are right?

Humans are weak and sheepish as a whole and that is why they are so easily led astray and why so few ever make their mark in the world.  We cannot all be great leaders nor should we try, but if you see something that needs to be changed for the better, pray for the strength to act upon that need for the good of all.

Many that are making changes in our current culture are either seriously ignorant or spiritually blind because the many changes that have occurred in America the last half century have not been for the better.  Since Roe vs Wade, when one ignorant and unfair judicial ruling came down to allow a woman to destroy not only her child, but the child of the father, who lost his voice that day.  This was not a ruling to be proud of in any way.  This was not a ruling that anyone should hold parades to march proudly for the right to legally murder another human being, let alone their own child, simply because that person was just too little to count to the courts.

I’m sure this ruling was not to grant the woman a “right to her own body” which is insane when it no longer is her body, but is shared with another human life she intends to end.  It was to hold down the cost of raising such a child on welfare because there are not many decent married women who choose this option.  Its makes as much sense as a ruling by a judge that would allow me to crash my car, because it’s my car, and if anyone happens to be in it, they will be injured or die as well.  I am talking apples and oranges here, or uterus and machines but it still boils down to a decision that effects another human life.

You lost your “right” when you decided to share your body for fun and excitement in an act that feels good for the moment, but everyone knows what that act is ultimately for.  Sex is not a spectator sport or group sport, it was supposed to be the most intimate act two people could share in the culmination of the continuation of life and a trading of your souls.  Now most that screw anything in sight no longer have any souls to trade with anyone, hence that “empty” feeling you always have using others and being used.

Our media has promoted the continuous destruction of our morals and culture which will bring about the end of civilization.  You can see it by the mentally ill that they back with sick, outrageous demands on top of what they are already allowed to do for some reason.  How the patients started running the asylum I will never know, but many like this are now in our government and other placed of authority that they have no business being in.

I harp on how the Global Elitists of the world are trying to destabilize this country now after trying to turn it into yet another third world country, much like they are doing in Europe.  The only way they are doing this is if they can get people to pretend to run as the leader of said country, with the sole purpose to sell them out.  This is why a specific, very evil and dishonest faction of our Government has had an ongoing, open “Witch Hunt” against President Donald Trump from the time he decided to throw his hat into the ring.  Every move they make is so obvious to those that are awake, intelligent, experienced.  When I was young I believed everything someone on TV told me.  This was a mistake.  There were stronger ethics many years ago, but the very wealthy have money to spend and most are desperate to sell out just to be a part of their exclusive club.

While I may not agree with everything President Trump does or stands for, I believe in giving everyone a chance to prove themselves before I attack or try to destroy them cause some other nitwit tells me something bad about them.  I knew trouble making gossips like this in school and I stayed far away from them.  Didn’t like haters, still don’t like them.  I was much younger, more naive and much nicer of a person.  I am very jaded and distrustful after my life experiences, some working for the Feds and seeing just how much dishonesty there really is in our world.

I am very proud of the way President Donald J Trump has handled himself under the circumstances, even with his Twitter account.  I don’t think I would have had the courage to continue on with that much hatred in my direction without wanting to return evil for evil even though Jesus said this was wrong.  It is a very human desire for sure.  I pray that all his enemies who have unjustly accused him to try and ruin him will get exactly what they deserve as it is written.

The Average Cycle of a Great Civilization

This was from an article I saved from one of Ann Landers columns years ago.  It was sent in by a retired US Army General, William W Quinn.  He had stated it was something he had found years ago and was not sure who the author was but wanted to send it in view of the recent epidemic of immorality and wondered where the readers would asses America’s current position in this cycle.

The article went on to state that the world’s great civilizations averaged a cycle of 200 years.  Those societies progressed through this sequence:

From bondage to spiritual faith.

From spiritual faith to great courage.

From great courage to liberty.

From liberty to abundance.

From abundance to selfishness.

From selfishness to complacency.

From complacency to apathy.

From apathy to dependency.

From dependency back again into bondage.

Where do you think America is in this cycle?  Feel free to comment.