Daily Prompt: Uncompromising Ain’t Popular

I used to be popular,

When I was a doormat.

When I tried to become another accessory,

Those that liked to wipe their feet went away.

Most relationships are followers and leaders.  Victims or victimizers.  Opposites do attract in this manner.   Lovers or Friends it doesn’t really seem to matter.

I went from unassertive and wishy-washy like my passive aggressive mom taught me to strong and uncompromising.  I can’t say for sure what the catalyst really was because I’m sure there was more than one.  Just trying to survive a severely dysfunctional “kill or be killed” atmosphere will do it.  This is why many of us survivors of abuse suffer from PTSD, not just actual soldiers.  We lived in a war zone most if not all of our lives and that takes a psychological toll on you, like it or not.

My younger sister was always headstrong and acted out in anger in constant condemnation of our mother and how she was “spineless” and “Queen of Denial.”  Since my head was in the clouds back then never wanting to believe anything was wrong, I had no idea what she was talking about.  I thought she was an evil little traitor who judged everyone harshly and it was not until many years and counseling sessions later that I got what she was talking about.  She always told me that she did not want to become like our spineless mother so she went in the opposite direction of not just becoming very belligerent and uncompromising, but doing all kinds of crazy, impulsive things trying to feel better.

She was later treated for psychosis and I feel that she suffered from borderline personality disorder when I see the symptoms.  I feel that I have some of the same traits myself when it comes to trust.  It makes you look “paranoid” when actually your history with those that were supposed to have been your loved ones, proves you right not to trust.  In fact you would have to be crazy to trust others.  She always said, “If you can’t trust your parents, who can you trust?”  And she was spot on.  Like many so called mentally ill, they sometimes see what the rest of us can’t or don’t want to.

After menopause I began to behave a lot like my sister, some of my relatives said so and that was not a compliment, they were basically telling me I was acting “crazy.”  This does not mean they were correct.  Do I have issues?  I would think so, most of us do, but can I manage?  So far.  Am I happy?  Not always.  But I know up from down, right from wrong and I’m not into substance abuse or any abuse so that’s a huge difference.  Medications and alcohol can really effect you adversely, even prescribed.  People try to belittle the Christian’s use of Christ as a “crutch” but that’s exactly what He wants us to do.  Prayer is a life saver.

Many times when you stop fitting other folks image they have of you, they think there is something wrong with you.  When you don’t make things easy and are tired of being played you appear uncompromising to them because you are.  Let them work with you for once.  One time I actually had an instance that got me thinking “why am I always the one who does everything, the one that apologizes first” and left the ball in their court.  The ball never came back, as I knew it wouldn’t.  Sometimes I hate it when I’m right.

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Daily Prompt: A Few Facts We Can’t Ignore

Facts of Life

There is no real “law” of reciprocity in life.  You will not always reap what you sow but many times what you sow will somehow disappear, usually by being ignored or stolen by someone else.

That being said, life is seldom if ever fair.  Once you face this, you will understand a lot in your life and hopefully live it with great care to your decisions and how they effect you and everything around you.

Not everything is your fault or your responsibility.  You cannot control other people or situations to a large degree so don’t try.  Do what you can, what you must, but sometimes you just have to let things play out.

It is said that “things will pass” but that does not mean that it will not damage or even destroy some of us.  We have seen it or sadly experienced it.

We all differ in our resilience but developing intestinal fortitude will carry you though most of life’s challenges.

It’s OK to let someone else do it.  Regardless of some of the hype, you can’t have it all or even some of it at times regardless of how hard you try or how much you want it.

Just “believing” means nothing.  What do you believe in?  It could be a Fairy tale and that would be foolish.  Believe in yourself to keep trying.  Believing in God to give you the strength to keep your faith is something worth believing.

Daily Prompt: Typical

So darn typical of me not to do what I say I’m going to do or go through with stuff.

I have gotten so lazy in my old age and being retired has not helped.  I thought for sure the reason I was not doing certain things was because I was so busy working in my later years.  I worked overtime for numerous years and then later on got to the point there was no way I was not going to take 2 full days to recuperate from the severe stress I was under Monday through Friday.

Take blogging.  I will wake up with fabulous ideas running through my head, even before coffee, even write some of them down and then never write the blog.  Many years ago I was an avid writer and did most of my writing freehand, did not type it out.  I believe many creative people are like this.  For some reason I almost can’t make my thoughts or ideas flow while I type like I can when I am handwriting full speed making it all but impossible to recopy the notes later because it’s almost illegible.

I have only about a billion ideas for some blog posts that I don’t give a damn any more who reads them and who doesn’t.  I know for a fact some of the finest, most eloquent blogs are seldom read by the masses simply because the subject matter is not something most find interesting or ever care about.  I believe many who blog are liberal or progressive minded which simply means to me, you are caught up in what is currently popular.  You can’t or don’t like to think for yourself and you feel more comfortable going along with what you think most other people believe.  Most don’t like to be excluded, especially from popular groups or shunned by the beautiful people so to speak so many go along with anything they hear spoken in an well modulated voice from a beautiful person on their television, especially a celebrity.

Those running our mainstream media know this.  They have studied and perfected mind control to the extent that you actually have people that are passionate about the most evil or stupid things on God’s earth.  I find it terrifying especially when I think that I was once one  of those people.  It’s very easy.  Just be young, naive, kindhearted, believe everything you hear someone say on television, especially the news.

There was once a time that I actually believed if a story was reported that it must have happened just like they said.  And if they intimated in some way the perp was guilty, I condemned that person on the spot.  No trial, no jury, he did it.  Especially if he or she was someone who seemed like a creep because he was portrayed this way.  That was before I knew some that they ran stories on and they left out so much of the background or real base for what happened.  I started realizing that our news stories are produced with end results in mind.  These reporters were not telling you what actually happened but were slanting it any way their producers told them to.

This is not fair to any of us.  We deserve to hear the basic facts about the things that happen around us.  It is the most dehumanizing and insulting thing for other men to decide what we are allowed to know about and how we are allowed to process this information ourselves.  Years ago, you were told what happened matter of factly because there was not this kind of stiff competition and so much money involved.  Most true journalists could not have cared less about making a buck off of what they were doing because they believed in truth first.

Now all of our major news sources are owned, probably globally, by wealthy elitist types who demand their views be promoted and followed.  Their candidates and their agendas must come to pass, truth be damned. This is called propaganda, not reporting.  To slant or report with bias so your side looks good while making your enemy look as bad as possible is actually against FCC regulations.  Now even the FCC is dirty.  I believe that they are not doing their jobs because I have filed a complaint about this kind of reporting several times only to be told that this is called “Freedom of Speech” which is a complete lie.  When you promote propaganda, cover up or report unsubstantiated rumors and you are in a position of having a monopoly over all the media so only your voice can be heard or taken seriously then you are dangerous and cannot be trusted.

This is exactly why the FCC was created to prevent what has now become the norm.  Many who run for elections need funding from the men who own these papers and news stations, they are not going to make them angry in any way or they will find themselves without the connections or funding for future endeavors.  There is so much obvious corruption currently in so many areas of America, I don’t foresee anything good that can come of it.

Daily Prompt: Encouragement to Congregate

But the ideology has been subverted,

perverted,

whatever you wish to call it.

As more is exposed, the motives begin to take shape.  There were always the rumors, the injustices, the accidents, the help for some but condemnation for those undeserving.

Back in the day us real liberals, hippie protesters, were anti-establishment and in the right.  We wanted to stop war, stop racism and discrimination of all kinds, make drugs legal if alcohol was,  just stop the hypocrisy already!

Now the establishment has taken over most forms of the media and the right-wing radicals are just that.  They are the anti-establishment now and “the man” put forth much effort trying to pretend to be liberal and encourage the new age rebels to sin in all manner knowing that some hedonists would fall for it and be on their side.  The actual establishment have had many years of extensive mind control study and know exactly what to say and how to present various ideas and accusations against their enemy in a way that will sway those unable to think for themselves.

Most progressive liberal citizens follow various medias that have been “kindly” indoctrinating them to be on their side and to think like them with some schools joining in as well.  No matter how offensive, vile or outrageous some of these talking heads or celebs are, they still back them up actually enjoying the hatred and bullying even though these same people told them bullying was wrong when it was done to them.  Hypocrites much?  Now the liberal left get to bully and they’re praised for their hatred and craziness by the liberal media and others in their “gang.”  This is exactly how I view them.  A gang of offensive, stupid little punks that are begging to be stopped.  It is dangerous when you know you can be as evil as you want and others will back up your stupidity.  That’s when it spirals to the point of no return for some.

Not sure how these little rebels are going to deal with hard realities if they do end up helping this global communist faction in our government actually get the changes needed to weaken and destroy their own country and they no longer have the freedoms, rights or luxuries they always took for granted.  The next move will be to try and fight their new real enemy.  It’s the circle of man.  Get complacent, get lazy, get fooled, get enslaved, revolt and start all over again.

Many realized just how fake these so-called politicians and celebrities were when they did not get what they wanted or expected for the first time in their spoiled, corrupt lives in Eliteville and a common man was elected president for the first time in a long time.   He is a wealthy businessman granted, but he is not one of them and made it damned clear he didn’t want to be.  He made it clear he planned on cleaning house once he was elected and when he was elected they snapped in a big way and their true colors came out.  The shock they suffered seemed excessive to the point that it appeared to me they expected Hillary to win without a doubt.  How would anyone know something like this unless there was something funny going on?

What’s that sentiment from Shakespeare?  “Me thinks they are all protesting too much.”   Because they are guilty of doing things they should not have done and are afraid they will have to be punished like the rest of us are if we break laws.  So far, many are getting away with their crimes.  Even when the things some have done are completely exposed and proven true.  If the media does not keep talking about it, it’s quickly forgotten and they are never questioned or arrested.  If they are questioned, it’s “off the book?”  Since when is committing crimes “off the book” just because you have connections?  We’re not going to pretend it didn’t happen to make your life easier or the investigating person is afraid for their life.  That sounds a lot like how they do things in Russia.

 

 

Daily Prompt: Conversant with Safety & the Value of Human Life

Will try 2 B short & 2 the point.****foul language warning****4 the faint of heart.

The first thing I thought following our latest of mass murder in a school.  Why the fuck is there still no security for our schools or places of worship?  These are the most precious & easily targeted places for some weak-minded loser filled with hate to take out his anger as he was taught to do by our mainstream entertainment industry.  That coupled with the type of coverage the Mainstream news media gives these cowards is even more incentive to be famous!  Everyone wants to be famous, don’t they?  Movies make evil people look like feared, indestructible bad asses when in truth they are weak, sick cowardly dumb asses not worth the powder to blow them to hell.

It’s obvious these fools have no empathy or compassion.  They’ve never heard of the Golden Rule & you can thank the demonic atheists working feverishly to remove the Word of God from every place their little cloven hooves can take them as well as banning all prayer from schools, because U know how bad that used to be for us.  No kids were ever shot back then & they just couldn’t stand it.

The hypocrisy of America is impossible for me to stomach.  Some mainstream media & celebrities make me physically ill with anger at the lies, the open hatred & the evil agendas they promote while protecting folks far more dangerous than those they openly condemn.  The liberal media’s constant promoting of mass murder to the most innocent in our abortion clinics while condemning the school shooting is beyond hypocritical.  They are more dangerous than any shooter having caused far more deaths with their rhetoric & propaganda but the babies are not killed with guns.

Guns are the key issue with a large faction of this government that is wishing for global control one day very soon.   They know exactly what they intend to impose on the public & what a normal reaction would be.  You cannot enslave people who’s very country is based on a belief in human rights & freedom, guns or no guns.

Many facts are coming to light that will not bode well for the FBI & other state & local government areas regarding this latest shooting from the way it was handled during the actual incident to the many previous warnings that were ignored.  Why would this be ignored?  Would our government give orders to allow innocent school children to be murdered as a further ploy for disarming the public?  They have no problem with the mass murder of the unborn so I’m sure this won’t cause many sleepless nights either.

If I were a parent with a child in public school they would be withdrawn until the school could promise their safety.  I would demand changes in all procedures including metal detectors & only certain points of entry with armed guards.  There is nothing hard or unreasonable about this scenario & we only have one faction to blame for our culture deteriorating to this level.  Liberalism.  It will eventually go down in history as the most dangerous insidious fascist group in the world.  Remember, during the time of the Nazi’s & the slave owners when they had the voice, they insisted they were the good guys.

No child left behind my ass!

 

 

Daily Prompt: The Present State of Existence

Things wrong with our society, culture, world…

Chain migration, forced busing, anything where any human beings are artificially moved and placed where they don’t belong or don’t really wish to be is wrong and the fact that no one appears to notice this is worse. It is completely unfair to all the people involved and those doing the forcing and the manipulation of others need to be forcibly stopped themselves. Those who use force must be shown force for the good of everyone.

Some of our problems have been caused by simply choosing to ignore bad or dangerous behavior of others for what ever reason, especially those that have deemed themselves better than the rest of their society. Humans tend to go along with others they think superior to themselves. Being falsely told this repeatedly by the mainstream media makes some believe the lies spoken must be true. I notice all of the changes they demand on others never effect where or how they personally live. This needs to be brought to their attention because if it isn’t there is a huge possibility that their detached, unreasonable and dangerous decisions will bring about actions and much needed reactions in others that will not bode well for them in the end.

Jews were forced places as well, so were the Japanese, blacks and many others throughout history. Men need to stop trying to force their issues and ideas onto others that really want no part of it. They need to learn to live and let others live their own lives. They especially need to learn to share, stop playing corrupt, manipulative games for their own personal gains while everyone else loses.

We are not on this earth to be forced to do anything to help a few achieve their own selfish goals to our own detriment.   This selfish behavior is considered normal because of their careful indoctrination of the peasants.   Humans are such control freaks by nature, the most dangerous of all the species and will sooner or later cause their own extinction. Maybe this is a good thing.   You have to wonder what our problem really is.

Now that I am older, wiser and fully awake I no longer pray very much except to thank Him for everything. I now speak to God because I have so many questions.   One of the main ones is why on earth of all the animals we have such an intelligent mind over any other life form but are also so much more devious and dangerous than any of them. Since when does a higher intellect make anyone more evil?   Maybe when you look to yourself for guidance and not to God? Seems clear as crystal to me. How did His Son tell us to live? “LOVE ONE ANOTHER!”

Never in any spiritual teaching are we supposed to harm and take advantage of anyone. Never are we supposed to be destroyers and liars, but builders and teachers of truth. Our culture is now being run by narcissistic psychopaths who answer to no one and mock the very idea of God. They are completely at a loss to explain everything created with design around them, so they come out with “Intelligent Design” or some completely fictional “Science” theory. They think by using the word “Science,” which is the study of facts that I believe have a physical basis in fact, in front of the word “Theory” which is complete fiction someone thought up, it makes it believable or true. To someone who is naive or well indoctrinated to this nonsense it passes as fact.

The insanity of this is these scientific theories are now given more credence by the mainstream of our culture than religion, but in fact there is more proof of a God’s existence than any fictional narcissistic theory someone cooks up. My theory is that man will render himself extinct with his own diabolical ego. That we are a species of evil, demonic as the fallen angel himself and we only have one chance to prove ourselves, one life. We can continue our selfishness and stupidity or we can humble ourselves before God and ask Him for the wisdom and guidance to live in His world the way He intended. No one else can make this choice for you no matter who they think they are.

 

 

Daily Prompt: Courage of Your Convictions

How many of us really have the intestinal fortitude to withstand all that comes against us when we know we are right?

Humans are weak and sheepish as a whole and that is why they are so easily led astray and why so few ever make their mark in the world.  We cannot all be great leaders nor should we try, but if you see something that needs to be changed for the better, pray for the strength to act upon that need for the good of all.

Many that are making changes in our current culture are either seriously ignorant or spiritually blind because the many changes that have occurred in America the last half century have not been for the better.  Since Roe vs Wade, when one ignorant and unfair judicial ruling came down to allow a woman to destroy not only her child, but the child of the father, who lost his voice that day.  This was not a ruling to be proud of in any way.  This was not a ruling that anyone should hold parades to march proudly for the right to legally murder another human being, let alone their own child, simply because that person was just too little to count to the courts.

I’m sure this ruling was not to grant the woman a “right to her own body” which is insane when it no longer is her body, but is shared with another human life she intends to end.  It was to hold down the cost of raising such a child on welfare because there are not many decent married women who choose this option.  Its makes as much sense as a ruling by a judge that would allow me to crash my car, because it’s my car, and if anyone happens to be in it, they will be injured or die as well.  I am talking apples and oranges here, or uterus and machines but it still boils down to a decision that effects another human life.

You lost your “right” when you decided to share your body for fun and excitement in an act that feels good for the moment, but everyone knows what that act is ultimately for.  Sex is not a spectator sport or group sport, it was supposed to be the most intimate act two people could share in the culmination of the continuation of life and a trading of your souls.  Now most that screw anything in sight no longer have any souls to trade with anyone, hence that “empty” feeling you always have using others and being used.

Our media has promoted the continuous destruction of our morals and culture which will bring about the end of civilization.  You can see it by the mentally ill that they back with sick, outrageous demands on top of what they are already allowed to do for some reason.  How the patients started running the asylum I will never know, but many like this are now in our government and other placed of authority that they have no business being in.

I harp on how the Global Elitists of the world are trying to destabilize this country now after trying to turn it into yet another third world country, much like they are doing in Europe.  The only way they are doing this is if they can get people to pretend to run as the leader of said country, with the sole purpose to sell them out.  This is why a specific, very evil and dishonest faction of our Government has had an ongoing, open “Witch Hunt” against President Donald Trump from the time he decided to throw his hat into the ring.  Every move they make is so obvious to those that are awake, intelligent, experienced.  When I was young I believed everything someone on TV told me.  This was a mistake.  There were stronger ethics many years ago, but the very wealthy have money to spend and most are desperate to sell out just to be a part of their exclusive club.

While I may not agree with everything President Trump does or stands for, I believe in giving everyone a chance to prove themselves before I attack or try to destroy them cause some other nitwit tells me something bad about them.  I knew trouble making gossips like this in school and I stayed far away from them.  Didn’t like haters, still don’t like them.  I was much younger, more naive and much nicer of a person.  I am very jaded and distrustful after my life experiences, some working for the Feds and seeing just how much dishonesty there really is in our world.

I am very proud of the way President Donald J Trump has handled himself under the circumstances, even with his Twitter account.  I don’t think I would have had the courage to continue on with that much hatred in my direction without wanting to return evil for evil even though Jesus said this was wrong.  It is a very human desire for sure.  I pray that all his enemies who have unjustly accused him to try and ruin him will get exactly what they deserve as it is written.