Is Denial Racism?

So…..

I have put off writing a post describing my experience finally getting my DNA tested.

I had written a previous post about racism called “Racism 101” and what I knew about it at the end of 2014.  I didn’t state all my issues at that time and probably never will because I don’t know much.  I tune unpleasant things out all the time.

So, is denial racism?

I have to explain something that I did not state in my previous 2014 post.  Everything in my family was a BIG secret!  No one in our family ever told amusing antidotes about anything or anyone.  No warm family memories were ever shared that I can remember.  We used to have more relatives around, because more were alive, when I was a child.  I’m sure the grownups must have exchanged witty repartee when us kids went to bed.

My father told us he was part “Indian” or what PC now refers to as Native American.  My mother was more complicated.  She had dark olive skin and very frizzy black hair but bright blue eyes, which I did not inherit but my sister had.  Once we were asked by our teachers in elementary school to find out our nationality so we could share this for Geography class.  Sounds ominous now and my mother didn’t like it back then either.  She said “You are an American.”  I was upset and saying no, what country did our family come from.  She refused to offer any information and told me to tell my teacher our family are Americans and that’s all she needs to know.  I knew my mom was not happy.

When I came home from class I told my mom that I know what she is now.  I remember her laughing when I said this and saying “Oh yeah, what am I?”  I knew she was darker than the rest of us, all of her children were very fair compared to her and some of her father’s family.  Some of us are a little darker skin wise and yellow or olive but none of us have her black hair.  One of the children in my class was the same color as my mom and he said he was Italian.  I told my mom I knew she was Italian.  She just started to laugh and said, “no, I’m not Italian.”  That was not quite true.

She really was not sure what races or nationalities she really was.  Things of that nature were never discussed in our household or with my friends either.  Only the racist mainstream media speaks of such things anyway, we all know that.  When I was an older teen I was rummaging through my grams drawers just to see what was in there.  I used to find old compacts, mirrors and all kinds of odd stuff.  I came across a stack of pictures buried in her clothing.  I could tell it was her when she was a teenager with some “dark guy with a fro.”  He sort of looked Cuban.

I took the pictures over to my gram and asked who that guy was with her in them.  She was irate to say the least.  “What are you doing in my drawers!  It’s none of your damn business who this is.”  Kind of an odd reaction.  Even when I try to make sense of it today, I can’t.  Who acts like that about an ex husband?  Why wouldn’t you say  “Oh that’s just your grandfather and me when we were young.”  Is that denial, is that racism? 

I knew that’s who it was so when I told my mom later what happened she said, “Oh that’s probably pictures of my dad.”  I asked her if she had ever seen them and she said no.  I asked her why not and she swung around and snapped “Didn’t you know I was a passer?”  I asked her what that was and she said “A person that passes for white.”  She had told me that she would overhear some of her German family talk about her dad’s family as “washed out colored people” when she was a kid.  I wasn’t sure what that meant and I didn’t really care.

I didn’t pay much attention to this short conversation and lived my life.  My sister-in-law had gotten her DNA done many years ago.  My sister did this as well.  I never cared about the results, of which my sister kept saying how she was “part black” which I ignored because I didn’t care.  Now I wish I would have pushed for more details.  I never saw her results which was actually done through a hospital.  I remember once when she was young they thought she had sickle cell.  I don’t know if my mom said anything to the Doctors at that time but I’m sure they could see her coloring.

I am going to share my DNA results that I received at the beginning of the year which shows that my mother must have some African, but mostly Mediterranean on her fathers side since I inherited a small amount myself.  Actually I’m a quarter Iberian/Italian & African DNA wise.  The one I am most shocked to see is the quarter Scandinavian I inherited.  I knew about the British Isle stuff, minus Great Britain apparently.  It was fun to finally do this though.

What’s strange is my fascination to all things Moroccan and Egyptian since I was tiny.  Not counting how long I studied their music and culture as an adult as small as that percentage is in my DNA.  It made me more aware of all these various countries and their cultures since I have lived my life as an American in America eating hot dogs and watching baseball because that’s what we are supposed to do, right?

So even though some of my white family knew the stories about my mother’s family’s heritage when I sent some of them my results, I was met with silence.  Then when I finally heard from them it was, “I don’t think this is accurate” or sometimes “these places make mistakes.”  So….is denial racism, because that’s how I took it.  I took it that they freaked when they saw a tiny part of my DNA was African.  Maybe I am just being too sensitive because I never bothered to actually ask them what part they thought was the “mistake.”

More to come regarding the quest for my real identity!

 

 

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Heaven and Hell & Being Someone’s Hero

I thought of this title when I was commenting on Facebook regarding a story about yet another loser on God’s earth and I think why?  Why be a freaking loser idiot instead of someone’s hero?  What has gotten into some, as if I even have to ask.

Who are raising these demon seeds that don’t seem to have any compassion, conscience or any concept of doing unto others as they would have done unto them?  And just how crazy is crazy if you are just super angry and want to lash out at others because you never learned self control growing up?  Years ago kids acting devilish had the devil beat out of them.  We didn’t have psychos running around like we do now because the bad influence of TV was not there and punishment was liberally doled out as needed.

I know that many of these nut-balls end up shooting themselves at the end of their hellacious temper tantrums but I do believe that most if not all of these could have and should have been prevented by raising them in the Word, teaching them discipline and letting them be aware of the truth.  The truth about hell.

I’m a firm believer that if you don’t have all the information, you can’t possible make an intelligent decision or even a fair one.  There but for the Grace of God, and the information needed, you go to hell.  Not fair for all involved.  Innocent victims that are maimed or lose their lives and another demon seed in hell we don’t need.  All because of parental neglect or ignorance that is government sanctified.  Yes I blame the fact that the liberals have made it appear those mean old religious people are just trying to cramp everyone’s style.  Sadly, this is the world you get when the Word of God and truth is silenced and the liberal agenda of “if it feels good do it” prevails.  Feeling good for one person does not always feel good for another.  However walking in the Word teaches you to be kind and treat others as you wish to be treated.

When a school gets shot up, I know why it happened.  When a murdering heathen kidnaps, rapes and kills some poor woman, I know the reason.  The Network news anchors that are paid by the liberal owners are only allowed to say what they are told to say and they all ask why, even though the reason is obvious to anyone with half a brain.  The people who demand that all sin be accepted as normal and who say you are hateful or unreasonable to expect others to follow law and order, will always be in the dark about why evil happens because they are evil.  They are the cause but can’t admit it to themselves.   The dark will not accept the light and will always be in ignorance.

There is scripture to that end that is kind of frightening but important to remember if you are confused about why this is so.  They don’t hunger for God and are unworthy to know the truth.

Those that hate Christ, will always hate good.  Dark hates the light.  Light will uncover the truth and you can’t have darkness when it’s lit up like a fire-ball with righteousness.  It appears that many in charge of things now resented their parents and the rules they had to abide by.  They are like spoiled little children because they were never made to mature as they needed to.  They hated being told what to do so they have decided to go by their own set of rules and have managed to turn the tables on decent people by demanding their sick, unholy rules now be the ones we all must abide by.

That’s not going to happen.  Luckily we do have the United States Constitution and a Bill of Rights that prevent control freaks from going too far with their dominance.  Many in high positions are trying their darndest to take away all of our rights, but not in a way that looks like they are trying to overthrow our country from within.  It’s actually pretty easy for them since most people really don’t seem to care much anymore about rights or infringement on them.  Many of the ignorant indoctrinated want to give their freedoms away and take us with them.  They can go straight to hell and probably will one day.  Just because some are foolish does not mean the rest of us should suffer.

Thank God that most of us can only be pushed so far and hopefully most will wake up before this country becomes so dangerous that we dare not venture out anywhere without massive weaponry.  I understand anger, but don’t understand evil because I was raised to completely understand that if I didn’t want something done to me, I wouldn’t dream of doing it to someone else.  There are those that do unto others before they have something done unto them or just do whatever they can to anyone to get something for nothing.  I have to admit I have worked hard my entire life and would not know what if feels like to just take something that I did not earn.  I am a very honorable person and am saddened to find fewer people that are just like me as time goes by.  Most couldn’t even give you the definition of integrity anymore.

I may have been used once or twice in my life, but I can sleep at night.  I’m sure many evil folks have no problem sleeping as well because they don’t have anything of substance inside of them.  They are what I call true losers.  To me a loser is someone who does not get the real meaning of their own existence and does not think enough of themselves to believe they are capable of earning or accomplishing things honestly.  I would much rather be some humble hero doing the right thing plodding through life that no one ever heard of then some world-renowned fool that selfishly hurts others.

You can say you don’t believe in hell, but unless you have some kind of proof that it does not exist you are playing very fast and loose with your own soul.  There could very well be a basis in fact for the long-held belief of eternal suffering of damnable evil who think they are so cool in their defiance now, but I wonder how cool they’re going to feel later on when they have lost what little control they were fooling themselves into thinking they had for their short time on earth?

All Life is Sacred or None is

You cannot pick and choose what human life has value.  It’s not possible.  You can say a monster is not human therefore has no value and you might be right but you certainly can’t say that someone does not have value by what they look like.  Simply for their physical appearance or age.

A society that loses the ability to recognize the sacred, will self destruct, much like we are doing now.  The hypocrisy cannot be contained because to allow some innocent lives to be lost and viciously scream for the blood of the unborn in the streets wearing vagina hats makes the plight of children of criminals pale in comparison especially when they have their life, but don’t have an ideal circumstance for the moment.  The progressives forget, most of us “deplorables” don’t have great circumstances either.  Then there is the crying over suicides of some while women are encouraged to end an innocent life that has no say in the matter simply because some dunce said this grave injustice was “just.”  There is no justice in evil.

Praying For the Truth to Finally Come Out

Anyone else waiting for the 2016 election to finally be over?  Yeah, me too.  I do know I will never vote Democrat again after all this nonsense.  I will say that I finally see who the bad guys are as we all have.  If you don’t think what they have done and continue to do is beyond contempt, you must be one of them.  Good luck with that.

As John Lennon Wrote in a song, “All I want is the Truth, just Gimme Some Truth!”  A nice hot steaming cup of the stuff!

They can’t keep the trickery up forever.  Sooner or later they show their hand.  Since most people suck, just grab the popcorn and watch the show, it will all come out sooner or later.  The blame game is about to come to an end.  Most have laid their cards on the table.  For me it’s a done deal, but I still want those responsible for the rumors, lies and trouble making to be exposed and silenced.

There are real problems in this world without the onslaught of non-stop propaganda that insults the intelligence.  The ramping up of the lies against President Trump came conveniently right after his progress with North Korea.  I bet that really frosted Hillary’s cupcake!  Her gang had to do something to make it all better for her so they make up all these stories of how horrible the illegals are being treated when it is absolutely NO different from when Obama or Bush was in office.  Obama administration was worse at first, before all the buses of parentless young men started being shipped into our country for God knows what nefarious reason, calling them “children.”  Yeah right.  Read to them before they go down for their naps.

This promotion of undocumented people only promotes child sex rings that grow more popular all the time as well as all kinds of exploitation of these poor people from slave labor to prostitution.  Anyone promoting “Open Borders” is either very ignorant or must benefit from this inhumanity in some way.  And these heathen have the nerve to call Trump the one being inhumane, after they continuously block any progress for DACA or immigration changes of any kind.

Whoever is playing these evil, ignorant little games will be sorry to God when this country finally does fail. They will wish they were never born because they have never had it bad, ever, hence their bombastic stupidity and selfishness.

Never Give Up, God Needs You

Suicide.

Most of us have thought about it, maybe even tried it ourselves or know someone who actually succeeded.  Don’t be blindsided by the enemy or those who try to glamorize it in prose.   Everyone gets tired.

I had a weird thought as someone who believes in heaven and hell.  I really don’t want to believe that God damns anyone in so much pain that they can’t go on anymore.  He gave us all a way to go on whether we like it or not and that’s just a fact that no one can deny that recognizes the truth.

And that truth is Jesus is the only way to eternal life.  And the only way in this material world that we can fight the devil down with His everlasting Power of Love.

When you feel weak, humble yourself to God and ask for the help you need to fight your earthly battles.  It will be given unto you.  Is it not easy, but you can do it, you know you can because you are the best thing that this world has ever seen.  You are the only you there is and ever will be.  Do it for God and for the world while you are blessed to be here for the short time we are afforded.  Dare to be a hero and continue on in faith.  No matter who or what comes against you.  Christ has you covered in His blood.

Daily Prompt: A Broken Country

The start of the last presidential election was the best and the worst. It was the best because it has just started to expose all the lies, deception and corruption many came to accept as truth and normal.  It was the worst because, well, fill in your own blanks because most of us are pissed.

The nature of the beast is control and violence.  We are the most dangerous species of animal.  All the other beasts instinctively fear us and for good reason.  Read a history book.  Our eras are marked by the various wars fought globally and it never ends.  For a while the mainstream media promoted wholesome family values, talking animals in clothing, fairy godmothers and happy endings for everyone!  During this time in America business was booming, everyone who wanted a job had one.  Later credit was easy to come by and shopping became our national pastime.  Things were pretty great.  Violence was not promoted in our media hence it was not prominent in our society either.  But that all changed!  Then came 9/11.

Fast forward almost 70 years!  Welcome to the future of extreme mind control and propaganda.  Welcome to manipulated elections and fake news.  The liberal faction that is trying to take over controls most, if not all, of our media which includes the entertainment industry as well as our news sources in all mediums.  This is not good.  This is basically biased, one sided news which makes it propaganda, not journalism.  Once our news sources are allowed to break FCC regulations which all have been guilty of, we are doomed.   This is how fascist dictatorships work and why Donald Trump is being demonized as much as possible.  They wish to get rid of him one way or the other to put one of their people in place, much like they have been doing in the Middle East for years.  Hillary was a part of that as well.

We used to have a free country.  A Republic actually that has slowly been taken over by “mob rule” or Democracy.  That has now changed since the last election with Hillary contradicting herself as usual.  Many career politicians are famous for that, the old “flip-flop” routine.  With ease of access to media now it’s common to catch folk doing this.  This is why it’s nice to actually have a solid opinion on things before making public comments that will be documented for all of time.

Donald Trump stated he absolutely “would” support Hillary if she was the one elected during the PBS televised debates, which is still available on youtube.  Hillary proceeded to state during a speech at a community college in Cleveland that “Trump was jeopardizing our Democracy by not stating he would accept the results of the election.”  Not sure what she was referring to since it’s not what I heard and not what he said at that time anyway.  She then goes on to say that “the difference between a dictatorship and leadership is the peaceful transition of power that sets us apart.”  This leads me to wonder why all the third world people were allowed to stream on into this country during the Obama administration leading to third world reactions after our last election led by Hillary herself as Queen of the “Resistance” which is illegal because it’s a third world stunt called a Coup d’ etat.  As well as makes a complete mockery of what she said when she somehow thought she had this election “in the bag.”  She was a little too shocked at the outcome as well as starting a false narrative and investigation into election tampering.   Makes me wonder who really did the tampering and why they thought her election was assured.

No wonder they were trying to undermine much of our Constitution the last number of years.  No one wants to believe a leader who is handsome, charming with a few good ideas could also be hiding a dangerous agenda.  An agenda that they may think is actually good or are trying to promote for purely selfish, financial gain.  People are paid off all the time and those that refuse to be can simply disappear one way or the other.  Impeachment, accidents, it’s happens every day.  Maybe some liberals aren’t as evil as they appear but genuinely believe in some of their unreasonable doctrine.  For many there is a method to their perceived madness.  Never trust anyone who strives for power like this.  They always have hidden agendas and many friends who have them as well.

When I write my posts I attempt to state actual facts and my personal feelings and not spread any of the many rumors on either Donald Trump or Hillary Clinton.  I do not care for President Trump as a person but I seriously distrust Hillary Clinton.

Daily Prompt: Infect ion

I was hoping to display a nice juicy, runny boil but no luck.

Odd pick when there are so many other words in our language like pus, or goo, or something equally icky.

To infect means to contaminate with disease or corrupt like minds with high-minded liberalism where you think you are better than others and should be able to judge them and control their every thought and words coming out their mouth.  Hitler tried to exterminate the “deplorables” of his time so any type of intolerant hate that takes away another’s freedom is not acceptable.

Everyone is different, even the same races, sexes and nationalities would have diverse opinions on anything and everything.  We will never get along.  This is why we based a civilization on the Ten Commandments in a Christian culture which basically says to mind your own business and treat others as you wish to be treated.  You don’t smirk with disdain at someone’s shortcomings, in fact that could bring some to anger.  In case you’ve lived a very sheltered life, you don’t want to piss some people off.  In fact quite the opposite.  I have noticed that liberals tend to dole out their compassion when the subject is one that meets their approval only.  That’s not compassion when you do a kind act for all to see, that’s putting on a show.  Much like celebrities are fond of doing and many fall for it.

The Golden Rule is based on non-judgmental live and let live unless you try to harm me or take what is mine.  Keep God first place and honored,  Don’t lie about me, try to seduce my wife and respect your parents.  I would say Moses could have come down with a tablet “don’t be a creep” but that’s not all of it.

The fact is God is the most important.  His worship and respect take up the first three commandments alone.  I don’t believe any “movement” especially one that claims to be the opposite of what I see it is.  Hypocrisy in action.  Pretending is not the same as doing or being.  Progressives should progress, not regress, which is the opposite.  They are the ones that flip out at the very sight of a cross and demand all sign of God be struck from every place they think they can claim jurisdiction over.  Still trying to figure out how a few cranks have more clout than the majority.  That’s not Democracy, it’s demoncracy or dictatorship and used to be illegal in America.

There is one place they can never enter and that is in our heart if we don’t want them.  They can and do try to enter our minds through many forms of media now.  I have never seen the devil try so hard and have so little resistance.  The further some allow others to take the Word of God from the world, the more the world will overtake the people.  It can’t happen unless you allow it.  Unless you refuse to fight fire with the power all God’s children have.