“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:13
I guess I just feel sad for a world that does not have the miracles it needs. I won’t even pretend that if you deserved a miracle you would get one. Because that’s simply not the truth. I observe the glaring unfairness of life on a daily basis in most things and I fight desperately not to let this shake my faith because it is the only thing that is keeping me going at this time.
At least I realize why I feel so bad at this time, why I’m so down and discouraged. After a lifetime of letdowns and discouragements, even tragedies, I am finally allowing myself to face my actual real feelings. Instead of trying to psych myself up and buoy my spirits with false bravado. Sadly, I know why I have been living this way. If I do not fill myself with these positive feelings, there is nothing in me. Children of abuse and neglect do not have anything good that was deposited inside of them. There is only evil and despair. This is the reason our world is in the state that it is in. People that are filled with all kinds of evil krap or nothing at all.
Jesus spoke of this phenomena and everything He said is the truth. He spoke of this condition after exorcism that if the person did not fill his “house” with the Word of God, that the evil would return and bring some friends. I guess even demons have friends and yet how hard is it for some of us believers to find even one true one?
I was feeling so bad yesterday that when I was standing in line to purchase my frozen spinach pizza, which wasn’t bad by the way, a tiny book near the magazines caught my eye. I’ve never noticed these before but “Jesus” caught my eye. The title of the periodical was Simple Grace and just underneath was the headline “Jesus is Looking For You, Can You be Found?” Good question. God only knows, no pun intended. Well, I purchased it and will attempt to read through the entire booklet and see what it has to offer spiritually and let you know.