You cannot move forward, looking behind.
Most of my life has been spent in poverty yet I can’t remember a time that I grieved about doing without various things. I had too many other things to worry about that had nothing to do with money. I have never been materialistic, thank God. I sometimes think this was an inner survival tactic. I would have driven myself even crazier if I became angry or frustrated about anything material that I lacked as well as love. This may be why I spent most of my childhood immersed in books so I could escape as much as possible.
I do think that I really am not materialistic by nature because “things” do not mean much to me and as soon as I have anything extra, I give it away and don’t miss it, much like love, not that I have had that much experience with it. I have always worked very hard to survive and never give up the hope for things to get better for myself, my family and for God’s people in the world. The world itself will never change.
I have been called a “goody-two-shoes” which is supposed to be a put-down that I take as a compliment. “Thank you!” I know I will always take the high road. I was once told by a rather snotty co-worker while trying to help someone that I “can’t save the whole world,” whatever that meant. A bit blown out of proportion, but I was thinking “you don’t know the glory of God, do you? You can’t even begin to imagine what I am capable of in faith!” It’s hard to work with lazy haters when you are a conscientious child of God.
I plan on being more specific in the future regarding life, the choices you make and the times when you don’t get to choose. Take care, God bless and may peace be with you.